He saw it!
"Wha-t is this?"
I pulled back my hand but it's too late. I should run away.
"You cut... yourself?!"
No.. don't say it. Please don't say it. Run away. Run Ja...
He grasped my hand and pulled me towards himself and pushed me to the wall locking up my ways to move even. I can't look him in the eyes. He hates me too. What was I thinking? I had hidden it from everyone so well, so what the hell was I even thinking?
"Why... No, stay back after the school's over. I'll go ahead first. Come quickly back to the class."
What? Why?
Stay back but why? I don't understand anything. What should I do?
"-and don't even think of running away. I won't hurt you I promise so trust me. I just want to talk."
I can't even if you threaten me with my life. I can't stay back. I can't...
I'm scared. What was I thinking? Friends? What friends? This word was removed from your life then why? I can't look him in the eye. What should I do?
I went back to class so that the teacher doesn't starts nagging at me. For the whole school hours, he didn't say anything. I was tensed and scared and his quietness was making me more anxious. He said he won't do anything to hurt me but why is he asking me to stay after school?
[ Ding Dong Ding Dong]
The last school bell rang. My heart is beating so fast. I feel like it would pop out any moment.
"Pack your bags and don't forget to take your belongings. Stay safe on your way back and don't stop at any shop to eat. Go straight back home."
"Ye--s si--r." (in unison)
The class teacher's nagging before leaving the class for home felt so boring and long but now it just ended in a snap. Everyone's packing and starting to leave but he is sitting at his place. I like to sit inside but it feels like a punishment today. I can't run away and I don't wanna push him.
"Are you done?"
"I- I c-can't stay with you. I n-need t-to go home or m-m-my broth-er will get angry a-at me. Please, l-let me g-go." I stuttered and was trembling, my hands were cold and my heart was pounding. I was scared. I stood at my place with my head down carefully not glancing at him and all of a sudden he hugged me.
"It must have hurt, right? It must be painful to endure it for so long on your own. It's okay. Everything's going to be okay. So, tell me if I can help you."
His unfamiliar hug was strangely warm and comfortable. His few words pierced my heart and all the pain I had burried deep inside started to flow out. I couldn't help myself but cry all the pain, all my sufferings, my tortures were flowing out.
He held me so cautiously as if I was some delicate thing who would break from a single touch. He didn't try to take a peek or said anything. He just held me and enveloped me in his warmth enough to melt my heart.
After crying my heart and eyes out which had swelled and became like balls I was left alone in the room. He went out to get something I don't know what and I'm following his orders.
"Stay!" he said and so I am 'staying'. It was getting past the time I reach home but I have my reasons to 'Stay'. Before I came back to my class from the terrace, teacher made the new student incharge of the fest coming up next month. He was asked to pick a member and he chose me. He said he knew I'll run away and won't come to school so he had a back up plan with him. I should say he was right but when I listen to him, it feels like he's just too foxy but I never met someone who would care for me. I guess I'm getting too greedy.
You can't let him enter your life.