I heard someone's voice it was Matt I was so happy to see him, " what are you doing big brother why are you hurting Ingrid?" he asked with concern
James face went pale, he was distracted so I took the opportunity to escape from him, I pushed him hard he fell down losing his balance. I grabbed Matt and ran towards my room without looking back. I had a bad feeling about leaving Matt behind with That Beast what if he would hurt him and he's just a kid with no self defence, so I didnt think twice to bring him with me.
we got inside the room, I locked the door and sat on the bed. I was so tired of my life, my dress was wrinkled and some parts were torn. I looked at Matt he seemed scared, I went up to him and told him " look at me dear, whatever you saw down there don't say it to anyone ok?'
Matt nodded " but why not , he was hurting you, papa will punish him?'" he asked holding my hands. "because there's no point I know and you won't understand it so leave it and why did you come alone without father?" I asked.
" Papa told me to go home as I was done with field work and he will come later after meeting his friend so I returned alone" He said.
I nodded and suggested" why don't you rest sometime until mother returns?"
He laid down, I pulled the blanket on him. I went to balcony to get some fresh air.
James always harassed me physically, he used to touch me intimately and I hated it. I told him many times to stop it and we are like siblings and he said we are not blood related so there's no stopping.
He scared me so much, I was disgusted at myself for not be able to do anything to stop him. I told this to father he slapped me hard and said I'm provoking James to do such things to me and James has no fault.
I had enough of this family, my life had no meaning to them so I decided to take my life. I grabbed a sharp knife and held it near my wrist, my eyes were teary and I was feeling dizzy.
I slowly slid the knife on the wrist, I hissed in pain,blood was dripping from the cut then I had sudden realization I was doing a great sin and I was also breaking my promise that I made to mom , I had to survive and I wont give them the happiness by taking my life.
I had to survive in this cruel world with patience, not only that I had to find out who was the killer of my mother.
I snapped from my thoughts hearing a knock on the door...........