I couldn't bear to read more, I wanted to get rid of everything. Those words of his were so much true, that sunset was the most beautiful and breath taking sunset I've ever seen in my love, those hues were the colours of my love for him. At night I was out of my dress and surrendered to his embrace. I was crying my eyes again, weeping in this big room, alone.
Alone, I wanted to drift off to sleep, why death isn't getting me. I lost everything but fame and money, in my whole life I never craved for fame or money, I only craved for.... affection. I couldn't bear so I took my anxiety pills and drifted off to sleep with tears in my eyes.
" Hey.... "
" Jason...."
" Aly don't run so fast, '
Grabs her by and pull her closer and kisses her on lips.
" YOU are dead to me Alyssa"
"Jason I love you.... don't"
Blood every where on the floor.
I was screaming and crying in my sleep. Mrs. Guerra came and hugged me.
'SSSSHHHH... Lisa, its okay!!', she was hushing.
' God why this innocent have to suffer so much,' she could barely holding her tears, 'Lisa its okay!'
I still can feel the pain, feeling of loosing everything.
'Lisa, dear you have to be strong, for yourself.'
'Yes Mrs. Guerra I know.'
I released her from my embrace. She got up and said, ' Mr. Greyson called there is a meeting at 4 a.m.'
'Okay'.
Mrs. Guerra was going to say something more but my phone rang up. The call was from my bestfriend Ana.
'Yo bitch did you forget me huh!!!'
And from that greeting I realised that she is quite pissed on me.
'Ummmm..... Ana!'
'You didn't even think that it's important to important your only family that you're admitted in hospital and you had a fucking panic attack.'
'I,... didn't get time.'
'Don't wanna hear anything else, I'm here in Seattle, and we are so going for a drink tonight, you understood bitch?'
'Yes ma'am!'
'Btw I heard about your sexy ass stalker from Mrs. Guerra.'
'Come over I'll tell you everything.'
'Can't wait for the gossips, bye and take care'.
'Bye and meet you in the eve'.
As she put off the call I was feeling less heart broken, maybe that's the power of bestfriend. I at my phone, it was 9 in the morning. I went into bathroom, took my brush and went downstairs. Shuffled through some newspapers. The door bell rang and I went to open the door because Mrs. Guerra was working in the kitchen.
As I opened the door there was a guy standing with white tulip and hyacinth bouquet in his hands.
'Miss. Jordan?'
I nodded
'This is for you.'
'Thank you'
I held the bouquet and closed the door, there was sliver card attached to the bouquet , with the 'GREYSON' logo.
I opened the card and read, ' Blue Hyacinths are the most beautiful apologetic flower and tulips makes me remember you.'
It was really sweet. I took them upstairs in my room. Hyacinths are my favourite, he maybe doesn't know that. A text rang up my phone, it was from Jayden.
'Did you receive the bouquet?'
'Hyacinths are my favourite', I replied.
He sent a heart emoji.
I went for a shower. After a long time I wanted to give myself a self care time. I prepared myself a bubble bath and poured wine in a glass, put on some soothing music. I hopped in the tub and was trying to relax. After 20-30 minutes i got out from the tub and got a normal shower.
I was feeling happy.
I came in to my room wearing a bathrobe, picked up my phone from the bed and there was quite alot of texts from Jayden. He texted me that he'll pick me up from my house and today we will meet with the designated cast.
'OK :)', texted with a smile emoticon. I sat in front of mirror and started to wipe my wet hair with towel, dried my hair and brushed it. Did some skin care.
Mrs. Guerra came in and placed the food tray on the table. 'Lisa here is brunch eat and then go okay?'
'Thank you Mrs. Guerra'.
She left. I took the fruit bowl in hand and started to eat after finishing I got dressed and went to downstairs. I only had to wait for 10 minutes.
He rang the doorbell, and I knew he was here.
As I opened the door, a huge Hyacinth bouquet was covering his face. To be honest I was quite bewildered.
He handed me the bouquet and I was still in thinking.
'Why are you at me like that?', he asked.
I stammering....
'You said yourself that your favourite is Hyacinth, you didn't like them?'
'Are you insane?'
'Why would I be insane, you, yourself said that you love Hyacinth.'
'Okay so now you'll do this now... i just said they are my favourite'.
'Yeah that's why i got them nah ..... ughhh we are getting late,' he called Mrs. Guerra, 'Mrs. Guerra , can you please take care of these flowers , thank you!!!'
He grabbed my wrist and took to his car.
'Get in!' he opened the door for me. As we reached at his company, as usual everyone stood up and greeted him. Together we went to the conference room. Everyone was there from the previous day sitting in their places, except two more chairs were added this time. I thought, maybe for the actors who are late.
'Sorry Mr. Greyson looks like the actors are late.', said Director Jong.
'Then you should've informed them that I do not like people who come late at meetings', he said with a stern voice.
And with a click sound of door knob the meeting room's door opens wide and two people enters, I raised my head to see them. As I saw his face again after all these years, I was numb. The walls of the room was getting closer, as if there was no room for air, I couldn't breathe. It was my past standing in front me, Jason Anderson. The person who made me like this incapable of love, incapable of feeling love, happiness. The walls of that big airy room seemed to be trying to crush into dust, my ribs were screaming out of my chest. All I could think about that time, blood, crying, being alone, helpless. My chest was paining, i wanted to run away from everything, everything so suffocating. Every limb and muscles of body was shivering. He broke me.
I nails were digging deep into the skin of my legs. I could feel pain and blood coming out of my body. But it's nothing comparing to what my heart and mind had to cope up with. I stood up from seat, I stormed out of the room, I don't know if he felt 1% of what I felt. I could feel that Jayden was calling out my name. When I was near the lift, he was really close to me. I turn around and face him, looked into his eyes.
'Don't follow me from here Jayden!', I said with my teary eyes and stern voice.
The lift ding opens, I get inside, he was following me inside .
' I said don't follow me Jayden'
'Alyssa!'
The lift door closes. I booked myself a cab as I got off from the lift.