My life of hardships since I was freed begins since I moved to Miyama Town. I mean, I didn't expect that trying to live like a normal person to be so hard.
I have no experience of how to use money properly. I can't count; more like an elementary schooler, as I dump a lot of money on the counter yesterday and the clerk look at me like I am a idiot and give me a pitied expression. I dislike wearing shoes. It feels weird on my feet and I kick them off like they are a burden. There are foods that I can't eat. I can't eat heavy foods or they give me pained stomach problems and I have to stay in the dorms for two weeks or more. There are times that I have to stay in the hospital for a while also. I can't eat hot or spicy foods or they'll give me heart burn or a fever. I also can't stand the heat, or I'll get irritated and pass out. Another thing is that I can't talk that well, at all. I get tongue tied and stammer and my mouth locks up. Also...I am shy....very shy.
My emotions is slight numb, so I have a hard time making friends because of my indifferent attitude.
"Aag!"
Right.... there is this physical condition that I am suffering from. It happened ever since I was locked up.
There is this gem growing near my heart and lung on the right side. It seems to grow whenever I was stressed out or physically suffering.
"Aaaaag!"
Crap....I am having a headache now.
Due to this condition, my grades are failing. Tomorrow, I have the Third Semester Tests. I have to study. But...I can't concentrate in this condition.
"Ang!"
Dang it...it is like a rock scratching hard against my heart and squeezing my lungs...
"Mmmmg....*gasp, gasp*"
My conscience is fading....
"At this rate....I'll...."
I then collapsed on my desk....with my study notes covered in sweat from the pain and tears of my current suffering.
Freedom....is this what it feels like....?
If it is....it is painful....
But....I don't regret it...
Actually....I am happy.
...at least...it is better ... than dying.
I then drift of to sleep.
With a smile on my face.