today I am going to say sorry to him and also going to make a new friend for sure I was talking to myself as usual. mom started shouting "your bus is on gate" hurry up. yes today I was late I don't know why but still I am thinking about the person O God ok fine I have to go I just went to my seat with someone was already there I don't want my morning to be pissed off so I just went on another seat.
I went to my class again but today he didn't came I was curious to know why but today the girl was there and I finally thought I will make a new friend. so I just said hi! but something was off with her. she didn't replied girl sitting next to her told me hi I asked her what is wrong with her she told me she is just like that she never used to talk to anyone. so let it be. but then she ask me what's my name I told her ela. and he told she replied with Jenny. first time I had talked to someone and it was fun to share, to talk, to know, it was actually something I feel I am also normal human like other for the first time.
as the same way I went to the canteen again. but today I was not alone Jenny was there with me and with her boyfriend Ronnie they both look so cute and perfect for each other. it was so fun talking and eating both at the same time it was. then we went back to the class together they asked me about the after college plan I said nothing. they insist me to go with them but I though it was to early to rely on anyone so I said no. and walk towards the bus. shouting "I am at home". mom asked me again how was my day. but this time I don't have to lie her I told her about my friend Jenny and Ronnie and she was happy to hear that.
finally It was something new which I did for the first time. I had a friend a real friend more then self talk I can talk to someone.
bye dairy