....."Your wife did an abortion" as the doctor mentioned abortion, reality struck me. I slumped to the chair and was so bittered .".....and she really lost a lot of blood" the doctor sighed, and continued"...so i felt like asking you, ...how could she undergo in this kind of thing. She might have died during the process. If really the two of you doesn't want another kids, then both of you could have conduct a family planning not this way" the doctor advised. I felt like the ground should open let me sink. l . Need. To. Sink. In
"Doctor "i managed to talk"it was really a mistake..... We didn't plan for it to happen"i tried to stop talking but I had no option than to let the cat out"....i was the one that asked her to get rid of the pregnancy, because i told her that I'm not..."i tried to search for a better word but I couldn't"...that I'm not financially stable to take care of kids now..... Now see what i caused her" i lament to the doctor
"Oh my God! You made a very huge mistake" the doctor said looking at me in dismay "what were you thinking, what if she dies on the process..... Hmm" the doctor brought out a file " Well....we found out that her womb is weak, she needs to take a proper medication. So i will advice you not to repeat that again because it might cause a huge damage on her"closing the file a"anyway she will be fine, just make sure that she consumes a lot of fruits ,enough protein." The doctor said as he wrote the names of drug , my wife needed and later gave me the piece of paper as he directed me to my wife special room. .....At first I do not know how to meet my wife and talk to her, i was so ashamed of myself.. I had to gather some courage.... took a deep breathe, then went to my wife and sat next to her, holding her hands.
"Sweetie, I'm so sorry for what happened to you.... It didn't occur to me that you will go into so much pain like this..... Forgive me"i felt something like tears dripping "it won't happen again, i promise" yes it won't happen again, it's a promise. I cannot allow my wife to suffer because of my selfish desire. Not again. I caressed her hand and lifted it up to give her a warm peck there. My wife only nod and brushed my thigh with her soft hand." Baby the doctor said that you will need lots of fruits and.... I will buy you this drugs at the pharmacy, for you to get well soon" i brought out the list for her to take a look
"You mean all these?" My wife asked staring at the paper I was holding. My wife hates drugs, she was not a fan of it and she doesn't like it. Yeah nobody loves drugs but her own case was different.
"Yes i know baby... But you got to do this for me" oh how selfish I could be
"Oh no baby...." She took a deep breathe. like she had to accept "So when are we leaving"
"Well the way I'm seeing this... We will leave tomorrow morning" I said biting lip
"But you have not eaten, what are we going to do" my wife said as she rubs my face gently
"Do not worry about me baby..... Just worry about yourself" touching my wallet"anyway i will buy us food outside, let's manage it okay?"
"Alright dear, but are you sure you will like it?" My wife asked but i was distracted by my phone's ringing and I checked and it was my mother.
📱"hello Chinedu"📱my mother speaks through the phone
📱"ma how are you"📱
📱"i'm fine but don't worry about me..... Let's worry about our wife"📱my mom said so concerned
📱"well.... She's better now"📱
📱"Alright, i know she will be fine, it is just a minor problem, it just a matter of nine months journey..... She will get use to it very soon and....."📱 mom got distracted by my wife's cough which I cuts in
📱"mama, we lost the baby"📱i wasn't feeling comfortable as i spilled everything
📱"awwwww... My child I'm so sorry"📱my mother consoles 📱"oh.... I didn't know.... How is she doing now. Hope your wife isn't taking it too personal... I know its not easy but she needs to move on"📱 mother sympathizes with us and I felt a little ashamed of myself
📱"i am with her and she's fine"📱i tapped my wife to speak with my mother
📱"mama I'm fine, i will be discharged tomorrow"📱my wife said
📱"thank God.... I will make out time to see you people okay?"📱
📱"okay ma"📱we replied together
📱"goodbye"📱my mother ended the call while my wife turns to me and I could perceive that all isn't well
"Your mother thoughts that..... That I was pregnant.... How does she knew" my wife asked quietly.
"Well ..." I scratch my head for a better answer"babe.... Let us not do this here" i tried to avoid the question but I knew this will definitely come up, but I didn't expect it here
"What happened here" my wife was trying to be calm as she talks to me" tell me what I would like to hear"
"I was.... I was talking to my mother on phone the day before yesterday and it mistakenly fell off from my mouth..." For the first time since I was living with my wife, i was really afraid. I couldn't even look her on the face. I stop talking because I don't want her getting angry in her condition
"And.....?" My wife spoke still sounding cool but I could feel that she was feeling broken already
"She was happy to hear the news... So she promise to come and visit us soon" i couldn't look at her, i just bowed in shame
"Then why didn't you tell me that day... Even this morning, that you've changed plan... Why" she spoke with a teary voice "And i did these this morning.... Why did you hide it away from me!!!"she yelled so crazy not minding what she was passing through .My heart skipped, i was so much afraid. I was wishing to turn back the time. My wife was crying so deep.
"I thought that you have forgotten the idea of aborting the baby"i said as i was trying to calm her down
"You thought what!" She slams her hands on the hospital bed, i stood up, didn't know if I should call the doctor to intervene, i didn't know what to do "you thought what huh!"she continued "when you refuse to eat the food i prepared? when you comes back late just to get me angry?.... How do you expect me to live with that! .... To carry the baby you rejected?"she was quivering"i took out what God gave me on a platter of gold because of your selfish ambition "my wife wept so bitterly, i could feel her pain. I tried holding her back but she refuse. I swear she was a strong woman "leave me alone!!" she screamed, i was scared because she might drew the attention of other patients.
"Baby I'm so sorry"i begged, holding her together"this isn't the end of the world... You're still the sweet girl i know"wiping out her tears"we can move on... Let's just forget what happened, it's in the past now baby"i kept begging, patting her on the back. Couldn't believe that she will allow me do that.
"We just threw away God's gift.... Do you know how many women that's begging, striving in all means to get just one child... But we just...we just waste ours like it means nothing to us" she cried, i was pulling her together "i'm so ashamed of myself now" i pulled her together as her tears was soaking my shirt.
"I love you baby, and will always do" i don't know what else to tell her again. Only that I will try my best to make her happy because she deserves the happiness. She hugged me and was still crying bitterly, I was so happy that she was getting okay. The mistake won't happen again, that was the promise I made to myself .
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