I decided to stay with Francois even though my heart really wanted Miguel. Francois really loved me and I couldn't break his heart and it's not like I had a relationship with Miguel. I didn't really know Miguel, I just knew his family. If he really wanted me, he would have tried many times to find me and get me out of my dad's house.
Then I thought "how did I see that flash of memories at that moment?" I will try my hardest to find out. I always wanted to get my hand read and went to a clairvoyance.
I always passed by a house announcing Diana the clairvoyant and I had to go and see if she is real. I walked in to Diana's house and there was all kinds of crystals and crystal balls. The atmosphere was energetic and I was about to touch a crystal when all of a sudden I was pushed away by a force and taken to the client seat.
She said "I have been waiting for you, child. I felt the spirits get more excited 2 weeks before and I couldn't wait to see you. I am Diana and I come from a long line of powerful witches. You probably don't even know your history.
I didn't know what to say or ask first and the first thing that came to my mouth was "what?"
"Let me see your hand and I will answer your question" she said. Grabbing my right hand and then looking at both". Good thing because I was still in chock.
She was going " hmmm, hmmm, this is very weird, your hands are telling me so many stories more then one lifetime. Everything is split in 2. Let me tell you, If I had this kind of powers I would play them both. They are both good lives. You can stay with one and at night you can play the other life in your dreams. You are techniquely not cheating." "You can even go and change your childhood but it will be hard to figure out what is real and you have to keep track of your timelines to put it back how it was." "Come back if you run into trouble, Deary". All I could say is "ok, but how can I start." She came very close to me and said, "You have to meditate and hypnotize yourself, it will help you for now while you learn how to move around the timelines."
" ok, I know some hypnotism apps and I will try it. I said "thank you and I left. I quickly dowloaded the app Hypno and read all the policies and agreements. There was 2 hypno sessions for free. Ok I will make sure it works by trying to move when it says I am hypnotized and then from there I have to travel back in time. The way to know if you are in the spirit realm is to pull your thumb or fly. I remember that.
The hypno voice was of a man and it was a nice sleepy tone. I felt excited and scared at the same time. Good thing I don't work this weekend and I can see how it works. It will take me some tries I am guess. Ok I am in a comfortable place, no disruptions. I am not expecting anyone today. The hypno voice said, " get your body into a comfortable position in your bed, starting with your head, feel around to see if your body is in a position relaxed enough that you don't need to move again. Feel what your head is touching, you are feeling your head getting heavier and heavier with every breathe you take. Your eye lids are getting heavier too. You are not able to open them if you want to. We go visualize your neck and it is relaxed. We go down to your shoulders and visualize your chest going up and down with every breathe you take. You can feel and see your belly moving up and down other every breathe inhaling and exhaling. Inhaling and exhaling. Your hips feel like they are heavy and stuck to your bed. You feel your legs feeling relaxed while you inhale and exhale. You can't feel your lower legs now they feel like clouds now. Your feet and your toes are so relaxed that it feels like your whole body is levitating. Now that you are all relaxed you won't be able to move." " wow, I better test it now and try to move my head, really I can't move and I feel awake" talking in my head. The voice kept talking and taking me to some looping effect and told me to imaging a place that I went before, a house that I lived before. So I imagined my house when I was 9 years old and I was able to see it and touch it. The voice wanted me to see the people and events that happened in that house. I pictured my dad and step mom hugging on the couch and we were happy. Me and my sister were playing with my 3 year old stepbrother. I told myself that there were good times in my life too. The voice told me to tell my younger self something that will help me in the future. I quickly said don't be afraid, try new things and be determined to finish your work on time. I quickly woke up and I couldn't believe how relaxed and light I was. I really felt in the flow, I was taken to another universe and I will never forget the feeling. I have to try getting there by myself. I should also keep a journal beside me if I happen to remember my dreams. That will be my steps to my goal. I will write everything and I will note if I am able to change a few things from my past. I think I should make a checklist first what do I want to change and what I want to stay the same. If I am going to do this I better make sure it is done right . I also need to practice how to hypnotize myself. I will find someone to help me.