sometimes I wonder who I'm ..I feel lonely at times, I feel like I'm the cause of this loneliness..I don't care if I'm left alone and I believe In myself but at the end I feel like I need something,, it's not money.. maybe love? because I have been loved many times and I have have truely love ,to talk about three ladies and one of them is now my wife..so what is it? I need and why would I believe that I don't need anyone but my self ...its because I want to live a life I feel ,it's the only thing I can put faith in.. hence for this reason.i create my own little world ,my own God ..my own creater so that anyone who comes in my world ..will have to live to the fullest of themselves without being control or been told what is wrong or right..a world of not been wrong as long as what ever you do is your choice ..no one to blame but yourself no Gods or Satan no helpers like Angels or demons to harm you,, but to create this world and live it in it's hard because I was born in your world ,the world of God's ,Evil or Satan, the people who trained me how to talk..walk and dress are in this world of Slaves hence they are against my way of life.beause they say how can Gama do anything without fear.because I know im free to do anything I want without the fear of Gods because the Holy Books are lies ... after I understood this I loved myself more than anything because I knew how safe and free I was ..and guess what? people don't have to be perfect because God himself according to the Bible he wanted to clear the world jus in the days of Noarh and the arc... the rains of fire in Moses time killed all human being leaving one family and destroyed the city of Sodom "hey" you know the story.. you see even us God's don't know the exactly outcomes of things with the knowledge of knowing what will happen..for this reason I find myself in between this world and it's rules and laws and In my world without rules and laws but freedom and love... as I watch from afar I see pain.. weaker soul.. slave.. followers.. leaders been leader but smart man on top of the God's.. these God's who created a Religious beliefs and books was able to change the mind sets and reprogram the spirit but putting fear at the easiest years of childhood and soul development.. you see" as the soul becomes one with you..the mind gives fear to the spirit disarming the spirit it's true Godly wisdom.. destroying you inside and outside that.. now you have grown... all you try is to be perfect and fit in ... no matter what you do you fall to become perfect and after that fight of perfection, you find a easy way out when you find out that no one is perfect hence when you fall you go back to the same texts .. saying no man is perfect but him.the create is perfect..by accepting that.. you lose the power of Free Will.. freedom and control.. you because prey to the world order.. ok if Zambia is the Christian Nation were is God ... because this means Zambia is the city of the holys ... this is what confuses me when I sat down..but after all I come to learn I laughe and say im alive now ..a pastor has Dead with an outbreak.. I'm safe home "a worshiper was raped as she was coming home from a church meeting.. "everyday I eat something I want "but I see them begging just for a dip of water... it's breaks my heart whenever they are telling me about God . how Good he is to them with all his Powers I cry as they too cry for my soul to be saved by their God.when they are too Gods... _so who I'm..? because I believe that they is no God watching us as much as you believe that they is a God who watches over us. someone who protect you as much as I believe I protect myself if I do nothing with.. as much as you believe that they is no death in heaven, is as much as I believe that Im'" that life which you speak of.... this world made us believe that we are Human being all are from the same family..the family of Jesus or Allah the list goes... The human body has taken over most of our Godly wisdom and will adding the knowledge of existince which now made the first wisdom man to enslaved other human being by so doing this he enslaved his brothers who looks different in colors and in shape,,so divided and overcome... in the days in the easiest 1A centric in different places of the Earth mix Life was in place.. when the white color saw the blacks and how big beings their were ..the got afard and went to report just like the first white master did in the Bible says Moses we look like ants in their eyes,, nothing has changed most of history is place in these Bibles .. places and coordinates,, massages are hidden their The myth of things all locked in the books ,stolen from the first wise man and retrain the soul to fear