Jenny
He came out from his bedroom with traveling bags and coat. He looked at very casually as nothing happened awhile ago. I was furious of the way he behaved, even after I warned him not to touch me without my permission. I mean, we don't have any sort of relationship yet. Not only that, but I like him and there's no doubt about it, but I want us to develop a strong bond by knowing each other deeply. His sexual desires are so wild I'm afraid that I can't handle it. This is the reason that I'm not brave enough to tell him how I feel about him. I don't know how to satisfy his sexual desires as a woman, and I'm not ready yet. This is too early for me to learn all those things. I don't want to focus on the things that might corrupt my mind. At the same time, I like him so much and wanted to be with him. It's really awesome to spend time with him alone. Our conversation today is a good start of knowing each other, but it's not enough. I think we have a long way to go, but it's impossible if he keeps making me feel nervous. I can't say NO to him willingly when he touched me because my body became his prisoner. It allows him to control the way he wants. I really want to make love with him, but not now. Not when I'm still a student. He should know that I'm struggling too. It's not easy for me to keep distance from the one person that I like so much, and I don't even know why. "You're ready to go?" he asked. I just nodded my head while getting up from the chair. Then we leave his apartment and headed to the car park. He put all his traveling bags back passenger seat. He opened the door for me to sit in the front passenger seat and came in too. We fastened our seat belts, and he started to drive. He didn't say any words since we get into the car. He was in a deep thought and I don't want to upset him again by asking him not to touch me. I can't see him get disappointed because of me. So I just kept quiet and look the buildings out the window. After a while he grab my hands and kissed slowly. That made so happy for some unknown reason. I was totally surprised, and I looked at him with a smile on my face. "You're smiling! You know that? So this is your thing, uh?," he said. I just looked away from him because I don't want to show him how much I want him to kiss me gently at that moment, but I'm glad that he actually know that without me telling him. He moved both our hands and rested it on his hard and sculpted chest. He was continuously kissing and caressed my hands lovingly. That's the moment I know this man is not bad as I thought, but I need more from him. I want him to show me that I can trust him with all my heart. Soon we reached at the mansion, and he opened the door for me to get down from the car. Once I get down from the car, he hugged me so tightly and whispered, "I will always remember this day. Please don't think I'm taking advantage of you. I will never do that. As a man, I need something more than this. If you don't know what I'm saying, let me show you. Let's explore each other even more. Let me Jen." For the first time, I hugged him back tightly and nodded my head. I'm not sure what I'm getting myself into, but that was the only thing my heart wants to do. He kissed my forehead gently and caress my cheeks and said, "I want you to meet me every night before you go to bed. I want you to be the last person that I see before I end my day. Okay?". "Is it possible for me to come out from the mansion at night?", I asked him worriedly. "Hmm. You can meet in my hotel room when we're in Paris. Once we're back here. I will do something about it. Now let's go in. They must be waiting for us," he said this whole wrapping his arm around my waist and kissed on my lips. Then, we walked towards the mansion front door. I opened the door and no one was in the living room. Marion and I quietly go to his room first. I helped him to arrange his things neatly and hanged his coats in the closet. He hugged me from behind and kissed my neck and shoulder and thanked me. Once I'm done with arranging his things, he accompanied me to my bedroom. I opened my door quietly and we get in. He pushed me on the wall and locked my hands above my head. He bit my lips wildly and pushed his tongue in my mouth. His tongue and mine caressing each other. I kissed his lips while he was kissing mine. He released my hands and grabbed my butt. He squeezed it hardly, and I wrapped my arms around his neck. We were kissing and tasting each other's lips passionately. None of us are ready to let go of each other. It was so amazing. He slowly pulled away his lips from mine and carried me to my bed and laid me on the bed. He sat beside me and brush my hair with his fingers gently. Likewise, he said, "You might end up being naked if I'm here for too long. Go to sleep and I will see you tomorrow. Good night and sweet dream's sweetheart." I was too shy to make eye contact with him for so long. So, I closed my eyes quickly. He covered me with the blanket and kissed me on my forehead and left my room. I opened my eyes once he left my room.