After I called him, I wandered aimlessly under the rain. My phone kept on vibrating but I can't seem to pull myself together.
I felt bothered by my attempt earlier to leave Soma. It's weighing down on me. Soma has been my life for twenty years. It was my everything. I lived to fulfill its mission.
And I can't believe I literally said to the Chief that I'm going to abandon the camp.
I don't know what to think anymore. I'm angry because the Chief betrayed me. I'm scared as hell because Neuron might die. And I'm also feeling guilty because I tried to throw Soma in the drain.
I don't understand myself anymore.
Me, being pregnant, would it be enough to make Neuron leave his throne?
If I beg him to run away with me, would he?
Does he love me enough to betray his own family?
Is my existence enough for him to abandon the whole kingdom?
