The Chief is driving me back to Hermit Homes and I've stayed silent in the car and haven't said anything. The Chief was considerate enough to also stay quiet for my sake.
I've always felt miserable, but not as miserable as this. The misery I am feeling right now is far worse than I had it twenty years ago when my parents died. Back then, I had an innocent misery because as a kid, I was only capable of feeling that level of misery. I was miserable back then, I was vengeful, but there's still a sense of innocence in those feelings.
But now, it's different. I'm a full-grown woman. And what's making it worse is how ashamed I am feeling by realizing I've completely forgotten my purpose and I even started to feel happy with Neuron.
I promised myself I will never have the right to happiness unless I avenge my parents. Before that, I shouldn't be happy. I forgot that resolve. I've lost that resolve, and the Chief helped me find that resolve again.
