Alpha Lucas
I gritted my teeth in anger and frustration, as my wolf cried out in agony for my mate, our mate. Nothing could keep me in more control than my mate, the one who I have bullied when we were younger. The one who I would watch from afar, since knowing my presence angered her. She hated me and I wouldn't mind that as long as I know that she is alright. I don't deserve her yet I wait every single day for a miracle to see her walk through the door of the pack house.
For nine years I have suffered without her here with me and I deserve it. My parents and the whole pack were delighted to know that she was my mate, the future Luna of the pack and had never stopped searching for her, hell I wouldn't stop looking for her.
The day that I had first encountered with my wolf, nine years ago, I was relieved to know that she was mine. Though the guilt was there, the guilt had always been there since I laid a hand on her. I wouldn't stop punishing myself about it and when my parents and brothers had came to know that I had bullied her, they were disgusted with me.
They saw her as their own, and me being a selfish bastard had done harm to her. I was ashamed, guilty and disappointed with myself.
My parents settled me down on a couch to tell me that they knew Serenity and I were mates ever since the day she was born. They explain how I wouldn't want anyone else except her parents to hold her and sometimes I would sneak out to go sleep beside her in the crib, carefully not to wake her up. There were many pictures of her and I in our own little photo album.
That was until Justin had became a part of the pack. We found him when he was two years old, the same age as Serenity at the time. He was a rouge, an orphan. His parents were killed when my dad found them lying next to him. Justin then became a part of her life and she would always call out for Justin or Amber who was my first cousin. I had been jealous of their friendship and it made my blood boil seeing her with another male that wasn't me.
When I heard a couple of pack members, saying that they would be 'cute' if they were mates made me even angrier. Like I said I am a selfish asshole and I felt ashamed when Justin confronted me that he and her were like siblings, that she saw him as an older brother that she wished to have and vice versa. I could have won the Most Fucking Idiot award that year. Amber though, was a pain in my ass, though it was only because what I have done to her best friend. Amber felt embarrassed to be related to me for what I did, and slapped me in the face.
The only thought I had on my mind was that I was the mate of a girl chosen to be Mother Nature and that was no lie. I saw her interact with the forest, how it always lit up around her when she went in it. The aura around her, made me want her and made me fall in love with her even more. It was the main reason why I had shifted at age eleven. Most times, her parents or mine would find her in the forest at dawn, it frightened them.
She could punch me, kick me, strangle me but all I needed was her beside me. I want to be the cause of her amazing smile, her sexy laugh, every happy thing. I want to be the one she could turn to, to hold, to compliment her beauty everything. She always loves to take risks and dangerous things that will get her in danger and I can't risk that. Even at the age of five, I remembered clearly that she was trying to stop Ryan, who is now a warrior, from becoming a beast. Even til this day, he can never stop thanking my mate for that.
To know that her parents wanted us together made my heart clench, I bet they don't approve of me much now. I knew that if her father was here, he would have hanged me up from a cliff knowing he was very overprotective of her. And I would do the same to the guy who mistreats my daughter that way.
Kids....
I dreamt about having a big happy family with her, seems like dreams don't actually come true. Caleb, was the baby she saved on the day of the attack. The baby seemed more attached to Serenity than anyone else. He was an orphan, his parents ran away shoving a beautiful baby boy into Serenity's arms. And even though he was of care of the nursery home in the pack, she would always make time for him. He's now nine years old, yet he still remembers her, her scent like how a pup recognises his mother. We gave him pictures of her and him when he was just a baby, now he carries it around in his pockets. I became closer to him as I told him everything he needed to know about her. He was the only thing I had of her. I know that she would be a loving mother one day.
Her parents were like my own parents, they were loving and very honorable. Of course, they were different from us as humans but they served many years in loyalty within this pack. Dad was devastated when his best friend had died during that attack. He lost three people that day: the only person who was a brother to him; a person he treated as a little sister and a girl who he loved as a daughter. A letter was the last thing I had found in her bedroom.
"Serenity?" I hesitated as I knocked on her door, scared that I would wake her up.
After a few moments of waiting, I was starting to get worried, so I listened through the door to see if I could hear her steady breathing.
I couldn't hear anything, my wolf stirred within me knowing that something was wrong. I kicked the door open, only to find that it was empty.
I checked inside the bathroom, she wasn't inside. Her drawers were empty, no clothes inside. Then I finally saw a paper lying on her bed. It was a letter, the letter was stained with dry teardrops from my mate. It read:
'Dear Alpha and Luna a.k.a My Second Parents and my Beloved pack members,
I am sorry for putting this pack in danger... I know you guys have done enough for me and my family even up until now I can't get it in my head that they are gone.
It seems like a nightmare and yet, it's not... I wished it was. I wish that I could wake up to find that they are still there smiling at me and tell me that "it was only a dream", but they aren't here. They are truly gone, only because I am alive and breathing.
If the rogues could have taken me in exchange for the life of the pack and my parents, they would have been here right now, there wouldn't have been an attack. Maybe they would have been yelling my ear off to try and convince me that it wasn't my fault though it is. I can't just sit back and watch another one of my loved ones life be taken away from me.
Somehow, I seem confused and yet numb at the same time. Their blood is on my hands and I am doing whatever it takes just to keep you guys safe, even if it means that this is goodbye forever. You guys have trained me to "fight the monsters under my bed." So now I'm ready to fight them even if it takes my life just to do it. Dad had once told me that 'if fate is kind, it will lead you back to where you belong'.
So I want to thank you for every little and big things that you had done for us. I can't thank you guys enough and I don't think I wanted any other couple to have as my godparents than you guys.
I love each and everyone of you and I know that you're gonna hate me for what I'm doing, and that's okay cause I'm doing this for you all. Tell Lucas thank you for me, because if it wasn't for him I wouldn't be here.
P. S Kiss Caleb for me.
Xoxoxo,
Serenity Alexandra Myers.'
I couldn't hold in my anger and despair any longer. The paper dropped out of my hands and I started tearing apart the sheets of her bed. Tears flowed down my cheeks and my wolf who I have heard, cried desperately for our mate. I grabbed a pillow, that had her scent lingering on and began to inhale and exhale. My parents and the others came in to see the commotion, only to find me clutching on to her pillow and struggled to maintain my wolf.
Mom covered her mouth to stop the sobs from being heard. Dad sat on the bed, still can't believing that she had left us, as well as the grief they had been feeling.
I was the one to blame for that and I won't stop punishing myself for saying those things to her. For making her feel useless and completely lost.
It wasn't days after she left, until I felt her pain. I was worried, dead fucking worried that I almost turned into a goddamn rouge. Four years ago, I have felt her pain, still not stopping to look for her. Everyone was worried for me, her mostly. It has been five years already, still no sign of her.
The chains, laced with silver that I had told the twins to put on me helped me restrain from doing any damage, as well as locking me up in a cell. I was worst without my mate on a full moon. From a distance, I could hear the clock strike midnight. It was only a few seconds until the moon reached its peak in the night sky.
5....
"Hey, guys, look its the human..." I mocked together with my friends. She was walking together with him and Amber, so we blocked their path. Goddess I hated to see Justin and Serenity together.
Justin stepped up to me, "Leave her alone Lucas and step out of our way".
I laughed with my friends and shoved him away from me. I guess it was perks of being the soon-to-be Alpha. Though he was an inch taller than me, I was stronger.
"Look here, Tin-Tin... I wasn't talking to you so why don't you just mind your own business and stop acting like she's so valuable... After all she's just a human..."
4....
"Go away, Lucas! We weren't bothering you, just leave her alone!" My brat of a cousin yelled out from behind Justin, and her remark just made me roll her eyes. Serenity, on the other hand, kept her head down while Amber put her arm on her shoulders whispering soft words with each other.
I nodded my head to Mikey, Clive and the other two and they definitely got the signal smirking at me.
3....
I quickly grabbed Serenity by the hair and she yelped in pain. Amber yelled out to her as she was being held back Mikey and Clive while Justin was restrained by Trey and Dylan.
"You think just because your parents are respected and honorable in the pack that you are too, but you're not..." Her eyes were in tears and that made me more angry.
"Your nothing but a worthless human! You will never get respect! Not when I'm Alpha!" I hissed in her ear and threw her down the floor.
2....
Punch.
Punch.
Kick.
Kick.
1....
She took all of it... Not even using her skillful fighting to use... I always wondered why though. She was perfect at everything, and she beat my ass on the sparring fields so how is it different from now?
I roared in anguish at the memories of the pain that I caused her, as my beast finally had control over me. The pain I saw as I left her on the floor to bleed. The pain of how I desperately wanted to enter her bedroom that night to check if she was okay. The tears that I wanted to kiss away, the comfort I wanted to give just to hold her.
My wolf was desperate to get out of these chains, to burst out of these walls to find and claim my mate. I banged the back of my head on the cemented walls of the cellar, growling menacingly as I knew I couldn't go anywhere.
Suddenly, that scent...
That scent that was meant only for me to yearn and long for, had come. That scent that made my mouth water, waiting to be marked and claimed. The scent of forest and rain made me breathe in deeply, making my wolf not give up in breaking these bonds of silver.
Is it possible that Moon Goddess had heard my prayers? Or is it an illusion that the Moon Goddess has tricked me into? If anything, she wasn't alone... She was with four others. One smelling like a rogue that made me stiffened; the other two were humans and the last was.....a mountain lion? I couldn't be sure, the only question I had was why was she with them?
Her scent got closer to the borderline, I needed to get to her...
I roared again, this time in happiness and joy that she was finally here.