Well this is pretty awkward, I really don't know what to say to Ash and he seems like he isn't very interested in conversing with me. I wonder why though is it because of the bedroom incident. This is also what cause the misunderstanding in my past life he was very silent about his feelings so how was I supposed to know he thought of me that way but to be honest even if I had known I don't think that we have developed. This is due to me being a scumbag. He really was too good to me always lending a helping hand silently. Sigh
I really wonder if my brain was filled with water in my previous life. I guess I could be define as your average scumbag I let myself be led astray by a bitch yes that's the right word to address such person by. I squandered my family wealth; wasn't serious about working only causing problems : drinking, gambling and sleeping around. Then I met Alex swearing to myself that I found the one, my lover. I was so infatuated that I gave him everything I had and neglected my family and friends warning. Due to my idiocy I harmed numerous people around me with good intentions all just to prove to that person that I loved him and only him what I fool. I was basically a stepping stone for that person and his lover unknowingly, I poured my whole entire life into such a vicious person. They robbed me off my family and my wealth also my lover Ash. I Matteo will not take this lying down they will have to pay for everything they took from me.
"Good morning how are you ?" this is a pretty good way to start a conversation right Matteo thought as he stared at Ash looking expectantly for a reply. "Morning I am okay and how are you" replied Ash looking at Matteo with weary eyes since this is a first for him since Matteo doesn't usually speak to him unless it's absolutely necessary or he is in one of his good moods which is extremely rare. In those rare moments he is kind and if he (A) is lucky Matteo may hold his hands and propose to go out together. Although this good mood is after he (M) has tangled in bed with someone who is very much to his liking.
"I'm okay, today's breakfast is especially delicious is there an occasion ?" Matteo complimented Ash looking into those beautiful grey eyes that's lost in thoughts. "Hmm nothing in particular, by the way I won't be here to accompany you for a while at least 3 months " Ash said looking at Matteo hoping to see just a hint of concern or a demand for him to stay but deep down in his heart he already knew that he would be utterly disappointed again. Since he (M) doesn't really care about his whereabouts probably he would rejoice more if he didnt (A) come back at all.
"Oh, okay be safe and don't stay too long" Matteo spoke gently while watching as Ash, surprise reaction to his words for he wasn't very caring in particular to the matters concerning Ash. Prepharps if he did things wouldn't have ended as bad as it did in his past life.
"I will be leaving for work shortly," said Matteo as he got up from the dining table and moved closer to Ash. Just as he arrived within arms length of Ash he grabbed his(A) waist pulling the body infront of him closer. He knew how Ash longed to be held in his arms. "What are you doing?" Ash replied stunned, he was at a lost for words for what was going on this was the first time matteo had held him like this. As he became lost in his thoughts he felt a pair of soft lips touch his and a hand gently caressing his face as soon as he felt it. It disappeared leaving him daze; he only came back to upon hearing the closing of the front door.