The questions Dr Desai asked me were a bit uncomfortable. They mostly revolved around the past. My past. To be more specific, we talked about Aera. Since he wanted me to be honest, I told him the truth about my dreams. How I sometimes had dreams about us. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. He asked why I never mentioned it to him and I shrugged. I didn't think it was something serious. Everyone has dreams about a certain someone. Although mine was related to something tragic, it was still something I didn't want to share.
We then moved on to how I've been feeling the past months. I told him that I was very okay and the reason was Ryu. I had already let go of my anger and resentment. I had already come to terms with Aera's death and how it happened. I wasn't holding any more grudges and though I still blamed myself for what had happened, there was nothing that could be done. I can't bring her back to life but I also can't go on like a living corpse.
