I was damned! For life I guess. I had been by the man I loved not once but several other times and this perhaps ceases it.
I looked over at Marci who seemed innocent and no sure what was even happening.
I take a deep breath in, I tried to move but I felt so heavy as if they were filled with cement.
"Is everything okay?" Marci asked looking at me than Josh.
"Ask the asshole of a husband you have!" Eve said helping me walk away from where we were.
I dared not look at Josh. I dared not.
"What I scoundrel!"
We reached my car and Eve pulled out my cars, she helped me sit in the passenger seat and then drove off.
I felt the wind hit my face, covered with tears, the cold and the mucus flowing down altogether.
Had I been the bad guy?
Why can't I will be with someone I want to be with?
Why was I the one always choosing the wrong guy?
It was always me!
He had played me years back, he played me again and again and I was just there, like a blind man waiting to fall into the ditch.
Well done Neese! you landed yourself a married man this time around. With a child.
"Neese! Breath!" Eve called but her voice felt a whisper, I saw the panic in her eyes. Maybe pity. Of course, I was such a pity thing, I was that girl who was hurt by the same guy.
Eve had a great life, a nice man whom she was engaged to and a nice job, she was already living her life.
The pain in my heart was like a sharp pain, cut deep, I felt the air leave my lungs and my eyes just let out tears. A rush of emotions so overwhelming, I screamed!
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"Kelvin, what is even happening right now?" I almost tripped over my flip-flops as I rushed across the patio to where she's laying an oversized beach towel across a lawn chair. Heat radiates off the concrete, making sweat bead across my hairline.
Kelvin tilted his head to the side, staring at me like he has no idea what I'm talking about. Someone in the neighborhood fires up a lawnmower, and there's a ch, ch, ch of a sprinkler coming from next door.
"Eve told me I could use the pool whenever I wanted," he says. "If this is a bad time, though, I can come back later."
Oh Eve, always granting permission
I'm at a loss for what to say. Kelvin's typically near-translucent skin is green. He's always a little oblivious, especially considering he's in charge of the neighborhood watch. Kelvin's the kind of guy who wears sweater vests and khaki cargo shorts year-round.
"It's not that. You can swim if you want to. But..." I make a sweeping motion, gesturing at his skin. "Kelvin, why are you green?"
"Oh, is that what you're on about?" Levin chuckles like I'm being mellow-dramatic. "It's sunscreen, obviously."
"Sunscreen?" I blink at him. Who would willingly buy sunblock that turns them into the Jolly Green Giant? I mean, I know this is Kelvin we're talking about, but come on.
"I'm surprised you haven't heard of it. It's the latest thing." Kelvin planted his hands on his hips, making his moss-colored belly protrude. Since his hair looks like it was styled using a Flowbee, I doubt he's in the know on current trends.
"You should really consider picking some up," Gary continues. "Maybe it will shield you from assholes like Josh Rossi." He blinks. Even his eyelids are a brilliant shade of emerald.
Just great, I did not see that coming and maybe this was the real reason he was here in the first place and why Eve let him in.
"I don't want to talk about it now, please." I managed to say.
Kelvin stood to his feet and walked to me, he moved his hand and touched my right cheek gently I did not even realize there were tears there.
Pitiful me, such a morning show.
"I asked Eve if I could come, I am worried because she will be leaving soon and you will be on your own."
I felt my face fold, into pain, into anguish, and my emotions spilled.
"You are the one who told me to forgive that scoundrel, see where that got me."
Kelvin moved his hands from me, then stood still to take a good look at me.
"I said to forgive him, not get back with him Neese, there is a difference."
Just what I needed to hear, Was I blaming him?
"I just wanted you to be free of the past."
"Well thank you, I got tied back to it!" I stormed out of the patio trying not to fall in the flip flops I had on.
I knew this was all my fault, there was no need to rub it to my face!
"I did mean it like that, come on," Kelvin yelled from behind but I paid no attention.