Lu Feng.
I meant everything I said in there. Every single word....but...that doesn't mean I regret the marking or mating with him. Everything he said last night, I want that too but I need to trust him first. I need to make sure he's with me not because of the bond between mates but because he loves me... and .....only me. Just like his brother loves Hao Tieng. Whenever they are together, I see the love and adoration he has for Hao Tieng. I want that too with him.
Threatening to break the bond is a test. To see if he's changed his old ways. If he sleeps with someone else despite having a mate, I'll feed him to our troops.
"Mom. Dad. I need to tell you something." I don't on hiding this from them. I'm sure they'll be happy when they find out I'm finally mated.
"Sure, but , first take a seat and eat your breakfast. You've buried yourself in work lately, you lost weight. I've been so worried about you. You barely eat. For my sake, sit and eat." Mom said sipping on her tea with puppy eyes. She's manipulating me. I lost one pound and it's killing her.
"Mom, am not hungry and I didn't bury myself in work, I was just stressed." I say, taking a seat next to her. She watches me eat a muffin with a worried expression. She wants to ask what's stressing me but she's resisting. She wants me to open up to her. Not like it's a big deal anyway.
I finish my blueberry muffin and continue, "*deep breath* I'm mated." I utter. I watched as Mom's worried frown turned into a smile while Dad looked enraged.
"What do you mean you're mated,son?!!" Dad asked through gritted teeth. I thought he'd be happy to know I found my mate, then, why is he angry.
"I found my mate two months ago and we mated.", honesty is the best policy, with my Dad's enraged face, I don't think I believe that saying. While my mom's face was beaming with happiness, my Dad's ears and nostrils were letting out smoke. Literally.
"What are you getting so angry for? Both our sons have mates, which, means we're going to have a lot of grandchildren very soon." Mom said, standing up from her chair and gave me bear hug. I glanced over at Dad and he had calmed down. Really?! Grandchildren! That's all it took to calm him down.
"Who's this person? and Why didn't you tell me sooner? I thought we had a great relationship, you used to tell me everything even your erotic visions, but, the moment you found a mate, you didn't bother telling me. I understand why you kept it a secret from your mother, she gets crazy when mates are involved, but ,me? I'm more than the King or your father, I'm your friend." So that's why he's mad. He thinks I didn't trust him enough to tell him. It's not him I didn't trust but my mate and it's not like all of a sudden I trust Quang Ho. That's gonna take time. Baby steps.
Mom lets me go and takes her seat. They're both waiting for me to explain, "I didn't tell you not because I didn't trust you but, because I didn't trust the person who I'm meant to spend the rest of my life with....and...I still don't."
"You don't trust your mate? Why is that?" Dad asked, with a concerned expression, his voice calmer than ever.
"When I told him about the mating, he didn't believe me. Even after I showed him the visions of us together. He called me a desperate virgin who was trying to get him to sleep with me."
"Is he human?" Mom asked, with a serious tone.
"No. He's a hybrid."
"Which kind?" Mom asked, I understand why she's asking. There are a lot of types of hybrids out there.
"Werewolf and Siren."
"Hmmm. They're just like Quang Ho. Do we know whoever it is?"
"It's Quang Ho. He's my mate." I say. I don't know how they're going to take this. Will they---. I'm pulled out of my thoughts by the sound of laughter. They're laughing...so they ain't angry...but wait... why are they laughing?.
"Why are you laughing?" I ask, confused. Are they so angry that it resulted into laughter?
"Despite the soundproofing in the guest bedrooms, we could still hear everything that went on inside a certain bedroom." Mom said, wiggling her brows. They heard me having sex with Quang Ho.
They heard me having sex with Quang Ho!!!. This is the most embarrassing moment of my life.... Can't the ground just open up and swallow me already?!.
"Don't beat yourself up. Most people are a bit ignorant about mating, that's why they don't believe it at first. I'm sure Quang Ho will treat you like the Prince you are. The Chens are loving people, I'm sure he'll treat you the same way, Gang Zhi treats Hao Tieng." she said with a smile. I understand where she's coming from but why did the last part annoy me. Why did she compare me to Hao Tieng? I'm not him. I'm not loved by mate.
"I'm not Hao Tieng! Quang Ho isn't Gang Zhi! We are not the same so don't compare us. Gang Zhi loves Hao Tieng, you can feel the love when they're together, but, what about me? What do I have? A job that is just a lie to cover up why we have a big mansion in the middle of the woods, A caring family, Respectful subjects ( dragons in the kingdom) , I might have all that, but the one thing I want , a loving and caring mate, I don't have that. Hao Tieng does. I didn't get the good brother, Hao Tieng did. I--" I'm angry, jealous and frustrated. I envy the relationship Hao Tieng and Gang Zhi have. They were in love with each other before they found out they are destined mates, but us, he's only with me because of the bond. He doesn't love me. He doesn't care. I don't even know what he wants from me.
"The good brother, huh?" I'm in the middle of letting out all the bottled up frustrations I've had these past months, when I hear his voice. Cold and filled with anger. I didn't know he was listening.
"You know, for the past two months, I've been in hell." he says, I hear his footsteps approaching us. He stops just infront of me. Fuck, he's so damned handsome. With his wavy red hair hanging low and in a black jogging attire. He's so sexy...wait...What the fuck am I thinking?
"I only said what I said, because I didn't believe you and when I realized you're saying the truth, I apologized. Countless times. No day, passed by without me apologizing, without you clouding my thoughts, without wanting to right the mistake I did, without wanting to see you, hold you and look into those beautiful eyes, but, when I reached out to you, you pushed me away. I knew you were angry and that you couldn't avoid me forever but it hurt. It hurt not having you near me. It hurt knowing I hurt you."
"So, today when you gave me a chance to right my mistakes, I was the happiest redhead ever, but, after hearing what you think of me, my happiness shattered. You think I don't care huh? You think I can't love you, can't spend the rest of my life with you and only you. I'm glad we don't have what my brother has with yours, cause that way, our story can be unique.....and you're wrong, Hao Tieng didn't get the good brother, Gang Zhi did."