Gang Zhi
I heard him. Everything he thought. My past bothers him. I know I killed alot of people but I had my reasons. I didn't just go killing anyone I found -well atleast when I wasn't a reaper anymore. The things he thought. If he trusts me? If there can be love with no trust. I know there can't be but he can't dwell on my past. I know I wasn't the best person after the accident but I won't let my past take my mate away from me.
I love him. I love him so damn much it hurts. If my past bothers him, then I'll tell him everything. Everything that happened. Why I killed those people. I'll tell him everything he wants to know about me. I'll even tell him about Craig. My American bestfriend, or atleast he used to be. We haven't talked in thirty years. I wonder how he'll react when he finds out I finally found love. With a beautiful man, who I will not lose no matter what.
Just like he said he'd turn me into a popsicle if I left him -which will never happen- but if he left me I'd go in beserk mode until he came back to me.
I step out of the bathroom and find him sleeping on the bed. I'm still kinda wet so my skin is still silver and my eyes are purple -no gills, tail or sharp teeth- just silver skin and purple eyes. I walk up to the bed and cover him with the duvet. He's so cute when he's sleeping.
It's been a stressful morning. I was pretty shocked when I saw her and yes, I did attack her and I almost killed her. If it wasn't for Yung Jen, I would have done something I was going to regret for the rest of my life. I didn't want her to stay. I wanted her to go back to the kingdom she left us for and never come back but the others wanted to give her a second chance and I didn't want to argue with my siblings or break the relationship we had just mended so I just agreed. She'll stay with us in our house on weekdays and on weekends she'll go back to see her people and vice versa.
If she wants to stay on weekends and spend the rest of the week with her 'people' , that's also fine with us. I'm not going to hold a grudge against her cause I understand what she needed to do but that doesn't mean I forgive her and Dad . They would've told us, we would've visited or maybe we would've come with them.
It's sad what happened to Dad. How vampires killed his entire pack and he couldn't help cause he was old and weak. Mrs. Chen told us that he died fifty years after they left us. Anyway enough with the dwelling on the past. My number one priority is my mate and gaining his trust.
"I'll tell you everything you want to know about me. I'll gain your trust." I mutter to myself. I'm now lying next to him, watching his sleeping figure. As I said before, he's so cute when he's sleeping. Not like he isn't when awake. When he's awake his beautiful, absolutely beautiful.
"You heard my thoughts?" I hear his beautiful voice. So he wasn't sleeping.
"Yes, I did. I'm sorry for making you cry." I say honestly. I know he cried because of me. Because he thinks someone is going to take me away from him. I'll never let that happen. I'll always be by his side until he takes his last breath. I know Dragons have long lives and he might live for centuries but he isn't immortal. He isn't like me, so he'll die before me and I am not so fine with that but I'll make the best of our time together until he takes his last breath.
"I trust you, more than anyone and I know you had your reasons for doing the things you did. I should be the one apologizing. The moment Bing Wen told me your mom was here, I thought you were going to do something you'd regret. That's why I came running into the room. I'm so sorry. I'm such a bad mate. I shouldn't have thought of you like that. Your not a murderer." he says and turns to look at me. It looks like he wants to cry again. I don't want him to cry. I want him to be happy and most importantly I want to be reason for his happiness.
"I did try to kill her but I'm glad I didn't. I have done alot of bad things in my life. I killed people but most of them tried to kill me first. Most of them were vampire and siren hunters but some of them were humans. Which I killed when I couldn't control my blood thirst and I regret everything I did. When I saw you for the first time and my humanity came back, everything I had done while it was off came flowing to me like a waterfall. I barely controlled myself till the interview ended. "
"My past is a dark place. I don't blame you for not trusting me yet. I'll prove myself worthy of your trust and your wrong. Your the best mate a lifeless Quadbrid could ever ask for. I love you so much."
"I love you " he simply says and hugs me. I'm never going to let him go. NEVER! "Your eyes, they're beautiful." he says shifting in my arms to look at me again. He must've just noticed. and why aren't I dry yet!!!!! We stayed like that for a while, in each other's arms and I didn't get to tell him about Craig. I guess that will be a topic for another day.
After we talked, we went downstairs for breakfast. Every one seemed happy. Mrs. Xiu and Mrs. Chen seemed like bestfriends, all laughing like little children. It's like they were drunk. I missed her smile but I won't let her know that.
Yung Tang and Bing Wen kept sneaking glances at each other.
Mr. Xiu and Lu Feng were reading newspapers while talking about their oil company.
Yung Jen was just staring at Mom while she ate, then claimed she didn't have an appetite and left for work, to which Hao Tieng insisted to go too, saying he'll train in the evenings.
Hao Tieng's sister -whose name I don't know yet but for now I'll call her 'pink hair'- didn't join us. She took a wonton and some pancakes in a dish, claiming she'd eat at her new job.
Quang Ho stared at Lu Feng through out breakfast and even tried to talk to him after, but, Lu Feng just ignored him and left for work. I wonder what happened between them. Anyway my older brother said he'd take Mom home and help her shop for new clothes since he doesn't have anything to do while he's here.
After breakfast HaoTieng and I left for work together like one of those married couples. Sadly we had to separate the moment we entered the building. I was ready to let anyone in my company to know he's my most precious possession but Hao Tieng insisted on our relationship remaining a secret. He said that everyone would find it weird for the personal assistant who hasn't shown up to work in a week to suddenly be in a relationship with the boss. He insisted that the other employees would start talking and he'd be uncomfortable working in the company then he'd have to quit and find a new place to work and the last thing I want is my mate working in a different company with many eyes gawking at him.
Well, today would've been a nice day if the first person I saw when I entered my office wasn't The CEO of Lee Mesmerizing Designs.