"He lost a lot of weight. His mental state had never been particularly good.
"There was a time when he went back to Jia City.
"He has too many memories there. His and Zhicheng's memories, his and Jing Xun's memories…He spent most of his childhood and youth there…
"Wandering in such a place will definitely hurt him. I'm afraid he'll become more and more depressed. I've advised him several times to go back to Beijing or to England instead of staying in China.
"He refused.
"There was once when I went to see him. We had a meal and some wine.
" After drinking, he said to me under the pretext of drunkenness,'Mom, I was wrong. I shouldn't have forced myself. Why was I so stupid? Why did I have to use such a method to force myself to let go…
"I really don't understand what that sentence means.
