The night wind was blowing hard, making the jet black hair that blends with the darkness of Victor's night flutter in the wind. Images of Ursenna's face swirled in his mind. The wife that Victor loved had died and left him with a deep sadness.
Because he was sitting on a chair in Rainbow Garden, a place where memories with Ursenna were abundant, Victor played back the memory of the time when he sat opposite Ursenna and spent time together. Victor's lips carved a soft smile, with sadness implied in the smile.
"Senna,... why did you leave me?"
Of course there was no answer that Victor got because what he saw in his eyes was Ursenna in the past. Bitterness immediately filled Victor's heart, making it difficult for him to breathe properly. Crowded. Victor felt suffocated as he watched Ursenna die.
Victor lowered his head, Victor's fingers tucked into his jet black hair, then squeezed his hair tightly. A sting was felt on his scalp, but the pain in Victor's heart made the pain he felt in his body feel nothing to him.
Victor's eyes filled with tears as he remembered the last seconds Ursenna was still breathing. At that time, Ursenna smiled gently as she gave their newborn little daughter a name. Victor gripped Ursenna's hand tightly, and kissed the back of her hand several times because he was touched that Ursenna's labor went smoothly.
"Thank you, Senna, for fighting so hard for our little princess."
Ursenna gave a small smile, a faint blush filling her face. "I would do anything for our little princess."
Victor and Ursenna smiled happily at having a new family member. Victor kissed Ursenna's forehead for a long time to express the happiness that welled up in his chest. However, Victor did not expect, a few moments later, Ursenna would scream in pain and curl up while tightly squeezing her left chest.
"Senna! What happened to you?!"
"Argh! It hurts Victor! It hurts!"
Victor was filled with panic as he faced this unexpected situation. The newborn Ursilla even cried loudly because she was shocked to hear such a loud sound and woke her from a deep sleep.
"It hurts!! It hurts!! Argh!!" Ursenna was curled up on the bed, her fingers clawing at the place where she was in pain. Tears welled up revealing how much pain he was in.
The situation was suddenly chaotic, even though previously happiness filled the room. Victor shouted, asking that the doctor immediately check Ursenna's condition which suddenly worsened. Ursenna's cry of pain pierced Victor's heart, tearing the calm he should have held in such a precarious situation.
Victor's hand trembled violently as it touched Ursenna's arm. Carrying Ursenna's trembling body while wailing in pain into his arms. "S-Senna, ...where does it hurt?"
Ursenna lifted her head with tears in her eyes. The veins in her eyes bulged so that her eyes turned red. "I-it hurts… Victor… P-please… I…"
Victor's heart felt like it was stabbed by a thousand swords when he saw Ursenna's face, which was filled with despair and begged her to be saved. Just by looking directly at Ursenna's bright pink eyes, Victor seemed to feel the pain felt by his wife. Victor swallowed hard, his trembling fingers brushing the tears on Ursenna's cheeks.
"I-I'll help you, Senna… So hold on…" Victor tried to get rid of Ursenna's hand, which was clawing at her own left chest. Victor could see, Ursenna's left chest had abrasions from scratching her nails.
It was very difficult to keep Ursenna from clawing herself. Unable to express the pain she felt, Ursenna finally pressed her body into Victor's arms and bit Victor's shoulder with all her might.
Victor winced at the pain in his shoulder. He took Ursenna's hand to be examined by the doctor. "Quickly check what caused Senna to be like this?!"
The doctor's face was frightened and nervous as he accepted Ursenna's hand for him to check her pulse. "W-well, Your Majesty."
"Victor…" Ursenna's voice was weak. She no longer has the energy to bite Victor's shoulder, which is now bleeding, as can be seen from the red seeping on the clothes Victor is wearing.
"Yes, Senna. I'm here." Victor kissed Ursenna's temple. Ursenna's breath hitched with cold sweat filling her forehead.
Ursenna's left hand went up to caress Victor's face. A sad smile etched on her face now only resigned to accept the pain she felt.
"I-I'm not strong anymore, Victor…"
Victor shook his head while placing his hand on the back of Ursenna's hand that was on his cheek. Victor's heart skipped a beat, a sudden feeling of fear filled his heart. Bad premonitions came to make Victor desperate.
"No, Senna! I will definitely save you! So hold on a little longer!"
Ursenna shook her head helplessly with a wry smile. "No... You won't be able to save me, Victor."
The tears that welled up in Victor's eyes, now flowed as he winked. "I can save you, Senna. I can."
Even if Victor's mouth said that he could save Senna, in the end Victor's heart was still filled with doubts. Seeing Victor's persistence, Ursenna put on the best smile she could put on.
"Victor, you are a wise king as well as a good father. So... ugh... take care of our little princess, protect her with your life, and love her too…" Ursenna said with difficulty. Ursenna's eyes blinked in slow motion, making Victor afraid that Ursenna's eyelids would close forever.
Victor's lips trembled, tears flowed uncontrollably. A king seems to cry for the woman he loves. What's the point of being a wise king if he can't even do anything when his wife is in pain?!
"I will, Senna. B-but, I also need you by my side. Don't leave me, Senna..." Victor's voice was hoarse, he lowered his head, making tears roll down Ursenna's face.
Ursenna withdrew her hand, which was held by the doctor and cupped Victor's crying face. "I love you, Victor."
Ursenna kissed Victor's lips, her eyelids slowly closing. "Don't hold any grudge against our daughter, Victor. Instead, you should protect her."
After saying those words, Ursenna's head fell to the side and landed on Victor's shoulder. The hand that previously cupped Victor's face, now fell and drooped weakly. There was no more gasping for breath. No more moaning of pain.
Only silence. Everyone in the room where Ursilla was born caught their breath. Some even covered their mouths with wide eyes in disbelief.
Victor's body stiffened, his eyes stared blankly ahead. Victor's eyes opened wide without blinking once, but the tears kept flowing. Something's broken. Victor realized that. His feelings had been shattered into pieces, realizing that there was no life in the body of the person in his arms.
Victor lowered his head, burying his face in Ursenna's shoulder. "Senna... Senna... Don't leave me..."
Victor roared on the shoulders of the deceased Ursenna. Hugging the lifeless body with deep sorrow. "How could you leave me, Senna?"
Meanwhile, little Ursilla who was in Emma's arms, had stopped crying as if she knew that her father was sad, and she shouldn't disturb her like before.
Victor's arms tightened, his reddened eyes filled with sadness now turned sharp. There was anger in that gaze. Victor's jaw tightened, his lips pressed together tightly. No one noticed the change in Victor's expression as he buried his face in Ursenna's shoulder.
Victor chuckled coldly. "How can I live without you?"