The sky that day was so beautiful because all the colours, clouds and birds flew across its surface. The wind was blowing gently throughout the city as the sun started to set. That day was the most peaceful moment for us there were no worries for us. I hoped that the tranquillity was enough to get those thoughts out of, our heads. We had nothing left for us in this city anymore all we had was ourselves now and I could have sworn we were looking for something but I can't remember what no matter what. I kept trying to look for something that's just not there so why keep looking, I'm just lost.
On top of a tall apartment building stood a tall brown skin man of Indian descent standing up against the guard railing watching into the city. As he stood there a gentle wind blew through his hair, he put his hand in his hair to keep the wind from messing it up. He was fairly handsome in his own right but his face looked twisted with pain as nothing mattered from that point on. He reached into his pocket and took out a photo of himself and someone else, he looked at the photo a single tear ran down his face.
"I'm going to miss you," He said
"Hey don't get soft on me Jason" A voice called after him
From the entrance to the roof a dark skin boy that was shorter than Jason appeared and started walking towards him.
"Oh you're here Mason," Jason said
"Yeah I just wanted to talk to you a bit," Mason said
"How considerate of you," Jason said
There was a long moment of silence that filled the air as Jason and Mason looked out towards the city absorbing the beautiful scenery.
"You're sure about this?" Mason asked
"Yeah I'm sure," Jason said, "Are you"
"I am actually," Mason said
"Did you find what you were looking for?" Jason asked
"I don't know," Mason said, "Every time I thought I found it"
"It slips away," Jason said
"Exactly," Mason said
"Why is it so hard to find anyway," Mason said
"Maybe it's hard because you're ugly," Jason said
"Seriously I thought we were having a moment," Mason said
"Yeah no," Jason said
"This is why you're the idiot," Mason said
"You so ugly you're the reason our parents abandon us," Jason said
The silence filled the air again as Mason stares down at Jason. Time seemed to slow down for them then a huge burst of laughter exploded throughout the rooftop. The two boys started chatting and reminiscing about their childhood. They were having so much fun until Jason expression goes cold and Mason took notice of this.
"Yeah this was fun," Jason said, " Talking like this me and you"
"We kinda hated each other for while you know," Mason said
"Why were mad at each other again?" Jason asked
"Does it matter" Mason responded
"Probably doesn't" Jason answered
"At least we patch things up," Jason said
"Yeah. I got to go" Mason said
"Yeah bye," said
Mason turned towards the entrance and started to walk towards before he exited the roof he turned to look at his brother one last time. He walked down a staircase thinking about what he and his brother was looking for. He racked his brain trying to remember what they were looking for to no avail then other things started to fill his head. The painful memories of what happened replayed in his head and dreams nothing felt the same anymore and every day that comes the feeling gets worst. Mason started thinking to himself on the way down.
I did some stupid things not even I could explain the thought process behind it all. Look at me now sad, feeling sorry for myself and alone. Everything said to the girls I dated was true wasn't it or did I lie, I find myself thinking about this lately. I'm another guy making empty declarations of love to girls and frankly, I'm disgusted by myself. That's what most guys do I guess or am I wrong to say this because some guys say they love a girl then proceed to cheat. I could say the same about most girls as well because most just use guys for the money, attention or sometimes entertainment. Nobody these days gives a damn about having a true relationship with someone or am I wrong again. I'm only 17 so do I even have enough experience in relationships to say these things but all in all, I'm a horrible person anyway. There were four girls I have gone out with and said the same thing to all of them "I love you". I kept saying that I'm different from everyone in this world but that's not true at all because I keep saying the same empty statement. How can know if I love someone if I never had it in the first place?. My parents abandoned us when we were little, they just left us here all by ourselves. They said they loved us and just left us all alone waiting for them. From this point, it sounds like I'm making excuses for myself and my deeds but it wasn't all my fault things went bad right. I tried to hang on to our relationships in the past but it didn't work out, my friends told me it wasn't my fault they took advantage of your kindness and trust. I appreciate them saying that but I was the one that allowed them to do so right. A lot of terrible things happen to me over a short period because of that kindness and trust or even cowardice. Instead of closing myself off to people, I stayed open and continued to be used by other girls over and over never learning and hoping for someone to care for me.
Mason opens the door to his apartment and walked in leaving the door open then he walked into his place trashed. He looked around remembering what happened between him and his brother that night which caused the mess. They had a huge fight which turned the pace on its head, he ignored the mess and walked towards his room.
Jason on the roof thinking about his actions as he thought to himself
Sometimes I don't believe that I and Mason are related at all, we are two different in how we do things but we do get along great. I rather think some things through and he rather jump right in also we are two different races that don't matter anyway. If I were more implosive like him maybe she wouldn't be with someone else right now would she then again I'm not a relationship guy. For a long time, I'd just fool around with girls because I can but then I met certain people. Even though I changed it never works out in the end.
Inside the apartment building Mason maid his way into his bedroom which was dirty with his clothes and sheets all over, his bookshelf torn-down with his books scattered everywhere. He looked over to his bed where some muddy shoes were under. The shoes reminded him of an incident with his friend a while ago
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The sounds of rain slamming against the ground in a thunderous rage, the sounds of the trees rocking back and forth we heard all around. In this storm there two boys standing in the middle of it but one is grabbing the other by the collar.
"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU," he said
"Let me go I have to go," Mason said
"GO WHERE MASON??," he asked
"I have to go her," Mason said," I have to ask her why"
"Your pitiful," he said. "She doesn't care about"
"No she does you're wrong," Mason said
"THEN WHY IS SHE SLEEPING WITH HIM THEN," he asked
Mason breaks down in tears after that statement the visions of her flashes throughout his mind as he buries his face in the dirt screaming.
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Mason smiles after remembering what happened that day then started looking for something in the room after finding a shoebox he sits on his bed
In the streets, two girls were rushing through them pushing and shoving people out of the way. They were running towards the apartment building that Mason and Jason were living in. You could see the sweat pouring down their faces and huffing out-breath. One of them was a tall girl of Indian descent with blue streaks in her hair and the other was a short skinny girl with brown skin.
"You can keep up right?" Blue haired girl asked
"Yeah just hurry before they do something stupid," the short girl said
"Let's pick up the pace" Blue haired said
The girls started to run faster trying to reach the building as fast as possible. The girls approached the building the blue-haired girl noticed Jason on the roof and darted into the building.
Mason sitting on his bed with the shoebox in hand watching it almost teary-eyed as sadness washes over him. He uncovered the box reviling the handgun on the inside which then he loaded up, he fiddled with the gun while letting his thoughts roam once again
From what I learnt kindness would only get you hurt and used if you don't believe look at me, one of the girls I so-called loved and trusted slept with my best friend. When I confronted her about it she told me something I still don't understand. She told me I was too nice to her and I was too soft so because of that she cheated on me with my best friend. She didn't even care about me and I tried to please her anyway but to her, I was just a validation tool. I was just being a genuine boyfriend to her and yet she did that to me but again I'm an idiot for not noticing it either. Why would some do that to someone else that's just wrong using someone for validation but that's just relationships on whole. Two people together feeding each other egos until they're tired of each other, that's not all relationships but still, most relationships are like that. Everything so far that happened was my fault for noticing all the signs, well I noticed them but just ignored them because I trusted people huh.
On the roof, Jason is now over the guard railing looking downward as the sky grows darker and darker. He smiles to himself as he says
"I am a horrible person," Jason said
As if he could hear Jason., Mason says
"I join relationships on a whim," Mason says
"I lead on girls," Jason says
"I hope couples break up that I could date the girl" Mason
"I cheat," Jason says
Now in unison, they say
" I hate myself for it," they say
"I can't take it anymore," they say
"I want to die," they say
Mason in his room puts the gun on his head and Jason leans forward on the roof. Mason sheds a few tears as his hands' trembles while holding the gun and on the roof, Jason still holding on to the railing leaning takes in his final breath and gently begins to let it go. Inside the room, Mason steadies himself and begins to pull the trigger suddenly on the roof the blue hair screams out to Jason, Jason turns around to see the girl running towards him but he's already beginning to fall. The girl reached out to him trying to stop his descent, inside the apartment right before Mason could pull the trigger he saw a girl rushing towards him at that moment time seemed to slow down. At that moment Mason finally remembered what he was looking for and he smirks at the relation.
"So this is it huh," Mason says to himself, "So this is what love did to me"
Then an echo of a gunshot was heard