Mommy!mommy!are my results here now?when are they coming?Mommy! Aero it's here give me a minute to get it, okay darling? mom replied. Fineeee i say annoyingly but i'm here waiting i added.Mom took me to the hospital a few days ago,she told me i was special that i was different and i was wonderfully made,i don't know why she said this but it did make me feel good about myself.mom told me i was going to get tested and that'll be it,The doctor asked me weird questions about my state of well being,i didn't have any problem answering them and mom told him i was fine at least that's what we thought.Did she go through any traumatic event in the past?the doctor asked,Mom has managed to keep this a secret from everyone but at age 7 my father sexually assaulted me,I've manage to keep a smile on for mom's sake cause her smiling is my only priority.
3 years ago,it was all 3 years ago since my visit,i remember it like it was yesterday,i go up to mom's room to check for the result,it became a daily routine to accept he fact i was ill,that i was crazy,that i wasn't normal.AERO,AGE 9,SUFFERS FROM BI POLAR DISORDER,PTSD ACCOMPANIED WITH PSYCHOSIS DISORDER AND HALLUCINATION SYNDROME,SOLE CAUSE SEXUAL ASSAULT. Aero! Aero!It's time for school honey?Um..i''ll be right there,i just need to finish packing up some things,School,a place using the word knowledge and teach to attract adults and remain what it used to be,i never liked school,not because of the tedious work,or annoying teachers it's just that when you begin to take a look at everyone you begin to see how different you are from everyone else,i hurry down the stairs grab a slice of pancake and rush out the door to catch up with the bus,byeee mom i scream, see you later,bye darling she replies'.
i tell myself to breathe,everything will be fine,in approximately 109 days it will be over,i walk anxiously to the bus and prepare myself for the daily nick names,Freak,what mood are you serving today shouted one of the students,noo you should ask her dad,wait,you don''t have a dad.Everyone in the bus is giggling and chuckling at something that isn't even funny.HA HA i say sarcastically trying to hide the fact that it hurt me,i went to the back of the bus,wore my earbuds and fell asleep.
i Prayed to myself, "God dont let me hurt anyone today''.