Fear... Fear.... She's cute when she sleeps. She's killable. Her body is intact despite the scars she said to posess. Her hair is short and smell better than myself. The moonlight renders her skin so white. She's more beautiful and sexy than Electra. I wonder where she came from. I wonder why she lie.. I wonder who she really is...
I am naked. She is naked. And yet, next to her, I seem too old. Well, I am old. Menopause will soon hit me.. My skin is wrinkled. My hair is turning grey.
I am ugly. And she is beautiful.. Why would she love me? Why is she protecting me? Why risk her life for me?? Why is she here?
"Your stare is killing, Lady Ash."
"You are the most beautiful creature I've seen.."
"Your words honor me, Lady Ash. Can I leave your bed now?"
"Why would you leave? It's midnight and cold outside.."
"I normally don't sleep, Lady Ash. I don't want to occupy the bed of the lady.. It isn't my place.."
"I order you to stay and kiss me..."
Everytime I try to ask her, I can't. My brain stops to function and it's stupid. I am older than her, and yet, she has a thing on me. I feel like a kid next to Fear..
"You want to touch my tits, Lady Ash?"
"No. Touch mine.."
But I refuse to appear weak. I am a woman. I've longer than her. I've seen things. I've lived things. I refuse to appear weak..
"It's saggy, Lady Ash.."
"I know. Does it make you wet down there?"
"If you order me to, I will, My Lady.."
"..Stop protecting me for tonight. Forget my family and your oath just for tonight.. Make me yours. Hurt me. Lick me. Kiss me.."
I will make her mine. I must try. I lost Electra and I couldn't do anything to make her mine. But Fear shall be mine..
"....it's gonna get hot then, ashie..."