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Chapter 20 - Chapter Twenty/I don't understand

You got bigger.. And you wear dresses now. It really suits you. I wonder how you are doing.. Have you been eaten correctly? Are you happy?? Why are you here??? Have you found someone????----Just questions I want to ask her. I want to.... But it would be wrong. I'm sure she hates me now. I'm Nash and I betrayed Electra.

"Hello! It's me, Nash. Can we talk?"

"What do you want.... Earlier, you literally didn't give a fuck about me."

"I know. I was perplexed."

"..Is that it? I must go, I'm suddenly really tired.."

"Electra."

That name.. That name she was happy to hear me yell at that time. Now, she looks at me with disgust because I...

"Seriously... Be more assertive.. The Nash I knew wasn't like that. She was strong. She was a pillar. She was a force within a force. The Nash I love isn't a clown. When she wants something, she takes it.. The Nash who betrayed me, was fearful. She was confident. Don't tell me you are afraid of talking to me. I thought I was a nobody for you...."

'The Nash I love isn't'.... She still loves me...

"Sorry for that. I learnt that you requested to be with me.. Can we forget the past and be friend?"

I know I'm asking too much. I know I'm in the wrong. I know I don't deserve her. I know she has someone. I know I have someone. Still, I can't lie about my feelings. I, Nash, love Electra...

"Do you want to forget the past??"

"....Yes. I want us, to move forward."

"I will try... I don't mind being a co-worker and a talking buddy.... Good?"

"Good, little eel.."

But, I went too far too early. Suddenly, She started strangling me with one hand while reciting weird words... And it was her lover that came to calm her down...

"What did you say??! Can't you see she's in pain, bitch!!"

"I'm sorry--"

"It's okay... I'm sorry for that. My bad..Haha.... Nash, you better leave the past in the past. I ain't your friend. Never use that nickname again..."

"I understand. I'm sorry.."

Electra. She changed. She was ready to kill me and I didn't replicate. My body was okay with it. I felt okay with it.. I didn't mind dying if that would ease her mind.. Because I fucked her. And I deserve it.. I fucking deserve to die after what I did.. Still, I want to live to be the closest to her....