It felt like after coming to heaven, I was directly pushed down to hell.
It felt the floor under my feet got swept away.
I dashed towards his study and looked at him with those wavering eyes which tried their best to directly gaze into those ravishing eyes of his but couldn't hold that confidence to do so.
I felt terrible and felt my stomach churning into every bit of pieces while I asked, " Oppa, about your en-engagement...is..it..true?"
He smiled with those gentle gaze of his which I only wanted to possess and replied, " It seems my lovely sister looks really happy with that news",
" She even forgot that she was running through the hallways in her nightgown..you look pretty excited"
I was shocked by his assurance regarding his engagement.
My face was blank, I couldn't express any emotions.
All I asked is for his love..his fucking love.
I made so many sacrifices towards him and that's what I get to deserve.
So many emotions flowed through me.
I shouted at him without any emotions left, " Did you know how much I loved you? Did you ever thought after you get married to that woman, how much loneliness I would suffer as you are my only family member?"
Deep inside my heart, I knew that I was not a match for him.
I knew how compatible those two were. How people regard those two as the perfect couple.
Slowly tears started to fall like raindrops but the only difference was that it was without any expressions.
I was so overwhelmed with so much pressure that I wouldn't take...I rushed towards the window of my brother's study and escaped from this huge mansion.
For the first time, I realised it was so huge and lonely.
I never noticed such important yet trivial things when I was with my brother.
I felt a sense of security with him as if he wrapped and protected me with his hands.
Suddenly I felt a strange voice echoing me and to my surprise, I saw hands appearing from the ground and trying to swallow me in.
I screamed in disbelief and thought It was just my hallucination which leapt no bounds.
In this scenario, I didn't realise I was already on the road running vigorously and was hit by a truck.
I heard screams behind me, it must be of my brother's and those annoyingly friendly maids and that butler gramps.
My blood covered white nightgown shined brightly in that full moon night.
I cursed this life of mine where I only loved one person who didn't even understand my feelings.
I never lived my life with content thinking that's only dedicated to my older brother and about his imaginative feelings towards me.
For the first time, I wished to live again without my brother. I felt surprisingly strong that night.
And that's how my second life started.