THE IMAGE OF LOVE by ☕ latte
People say being lesbian or gay is hard,imagine being a sapiosexual in this generation.Would you even meet your match in your small circle that is obsessed with looks.Do you get turned on by intelligent conversations? I woke up one fine morning and started a simple conversation with a girl i dindn't know.She was like saying everything right and all her moves were predefined. It was like rereading the best parts of the novel you love.I didn't know how she looked like but i felt like an artist since i could draw her image through her words.She said she wasn't a make up kit and she loved her dreams and ambitions since its the only man that gets her energy.Our conversation had span through the whole day and i felt there was no counter attack i could build against her.She said all her defences were getting weak and i felt like the pacific is as blue as it is in my dream.
I felt there were parts that were really different but she was definitely my missing puzzle.We talked every time as if we had an exam about each other.I was getting to know her more than i knew myself. We were cheesy and goofy at times.I told her i picked the right library card and am just waiting to check her out.I insisted that if we were playing cards right now we would both be showing hearts.She said Johnie legend songs would make her undress herself and go Justin Beiber(Love herself). I was wondering if i could keep up through the night or i could go speechless but i felt these were only insecurities cropping up. I was putting so much energy and had a lot of expectations of her.I broke up with the girl i was dating right away even before she could say anything about what we could be.What i felt for her in the moment was something i didn't know I can never find it in someone else.It din't bother me that she was from far and we could'nt meet as soon as the next day.She called me the next day and it was like'come on come on turn the radio on '.She was my muse,my favorite music and the reason i was feeling myself.
Was i dead before i met her?Definitely.It was a week gone and it felt like how the sunflower feels when it faces the sun.When i was out with my friends she would leave me 40 missed calls.I was feeling alive and she reminded me how important i was.I started looking at myself at the mirror differently. I was starting to be handsome and loved myself more.She gave me an image of myself and I gave her all my attention.Every thing she said was in my head.I remember that week i wore a vest and it kept cropping up in my V-Neck light sweater.It reminded me of how she hated bras'.I was developing feelings and had no clue what she felt for me.
Would you love yourself if you ever met yourself?She was me but a girl. I mean i didn't have check boxes but she matched every aspect of the things i hadn't thought about.She was crazy and had a smart mouth, two things that define me.I felt comfortable, something i don't find in the opposite gender or with strangers all which are things that defined her at that moment. I mean, the more you get closer to the stars,the more you get the love you deserve.It was at that moment that i felt myself and every little thing around me. I had met people and been in a relationships before but it didn't feel this way.This was my first love the girl that reminded me of titanic.The best memories of her were flashes that kept me sober.She was my drug,I didn't know what i was missing untill i met her.If i could save time in bottle, I could so that i could spend it with her.She made me experience the true definition of love.