"Dear Diary,
'Ignorance is really toxic and can make us feel unwanted in this whole world' " and that day I felt it. "I wish, I could ignore the fact that you are ignoring me ,Raj. How could you do this to me?
I wish I could ignore you like you ignore me." I shared my feelings with my diary and then slept crying. From the next day, I decided not to talk to that guy who made me cry.That whole day I was attending classes, working in the laboratory and studying at the library , just because I didn't want to talk to anyone. My friends tried to spoke but I denied.They are my real buddies and wanted me to be happy but its wasn't easy.
In the evening when I checked my phone, I had fifty plus missed calls and hundred messages from Raj. I knew it's not right to forgive easily but if I truly think,I was missing him the whole day and its tough for me to keep distance and to ignore his messages and calls. At that mean time, I got his call which I received quickly. "Hello baby, please listen to me once then you can decide"he insisted. " It's a small trick to make you jealous. I know darling, you are hurt but that wasn't my intention, I was just dancing with her to make you feel jealous, nothing else".
"But why, what was the need? Can you explain me? "I responded.
"I promise you, I'll not repeat it again, please baby, accept my apology"he pleaded.
After few days, I had an exam in Ajmair, a city which is two hundred kilometres away from the city We lived.So, I asked Raj if he could join me on my trip.He was excited because, that was our first trip together .I was excited too , but my inner voice never let me enjoy a moment without giving me stress.
"Don't be so excited, did you have any idea that you are going with your boyfriend for the first time , what will you do with him after the completion of the exam? Where will you stay? Are you going to share room with him? what will be the topic of your conversation , if you shares your room?" Don't you feel you should book separate rooms?"(MY INNER VOICE) confusing me.
"Don't exaggerate, I can find solutions for all my problems, I don't need your thoughts and advice,okay".
"But , I'm your inner voice you can't shut me up, I was just presuming"( MY INNER VOICE ) remarked.
I started packing my clothes and other requirements with Rim and Nisha , they helped me and Rim explained me to be safe in the journey and Nisha was simply pulling my legs as I was going out with Raj.