"I want to go someplace"
"Someplace, where?"
"Oh come, Alisa, let her go, she maybe wanna refresh memories too like us"
"Yes mom, I have some memories to refresh also" I stood up, and quickly walked out of the dining room so mom won't ask me more questions, I took my jacket and step out of the house, I wanted to go there, before leaving from here, I wanted to go there.
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Vanessa's Pov
I was standing in this place that holds a lot of memories, My hands were in my jacket pocket as the weather here was a little cold, Cold breezes were rushing on my face, playing with my hair. I was memorizing every moment I made in this place.
At the time I was standing in front of a beach that was near grandma's house, This place is just a capsule of memory for me. like laughing with my dad, playing with him in water, picnicking with my family, reading here with grandpa, and getting fed by my mom and grandma. weird that I forgot this place exists. Oh! how much I want to feel that happiness again, that this place can't give me anymore, that this place doesn't have anymore, well Not for me.
When I was a child, we used to live here with Grandma, A HAPPY FAMILY, that's what everyone used to call us. My grandma was never this rude and cold towards us, she was happy soup, filled with love for her family, cheerful and Lovely, but as they say, Life's ups and downs do change people.
I still remember how grandma used to make lunch boxes for me when I used to attend kindergarten. How she used to come and pick me up when my parents were trying to set up their careers, but even tho my parents were all busy they never neglect me, and always made time for me no matter what. how grandpa used to read for me and dad and asked us to help him in the garden every Sunday, how grandma used to clean our dirty faces with her gentle hands, Well we were indeed a HAPPY FAMILY, but everything changed.
After dad passed away grandma couldn't face the truth of life, that her only son was no more. so she starts blaming mom for my father's death, saying that she couldn't take care of him and all, and my mom being my mom somehow took the blame. Mom always understood that grandma lost his only son and that is what makes her behave like this, grandma's pain was more than her, cause she lost her son and mom lost her love.
But Mom never lost her hope that one-day grandma will forget everything and we will again be a happy family, but that day never came things got worst, grandma told mom to leave her house and stay somewhere else cause she doesn't wanna see our faces. mom again understood and accepted it.
Grandma and Aunt Eva had a huge fight on this topic, I still remember how grandpa's arms were around me holding me in his embrace, warm and safe how he was ensuring me that everything will be okay, how little I was asking Grandpa if I will leave them? I still have a clear image of that night.
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"Mom, how can you tell them to leave?" Aunt Eva's angry voice was scaring me, I looked at grandpa to see the concern on his face.
"cause this is my house and I don't want her to stay here, after taking away my son" Grandma was pointing her finger at my mom whose eyes were filled with tears.
"Grandpa, what happened? why grandma is yelling at mom and why is mom crying?" I whisper my question to grandpa, My little hands were held by the warm old hand of grandpa who was embracing me in his old arms.
"Why do you look worried, grandpa?" softy's hands of mine landed on grandfather's face to wipe a tear, he looked at me, his beloved little prankster, which only made him look at her with worry on his face.
"Nothing nessa, grandma and mom are having a little lovely fight okay, don't worry, everything is fine" His old hands ran on my head, I look at him with belief that if grandpa said everything will be fine, so it will be fine.
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My six-year-old self locked that night memory forever, locked every word of my grandpa in my heart, cause maybe that time I did understand what was happening, but I wanted a ensure that it won't. I saw mom crying that night in the hotel when we left that house, from that moment in my sight and my heart my grandma was bad and was not a part of my family anymore, my love for her was gone, and the Love for this place too.
I still remember how after some years one day out of nowhere Aunt Eva came to our New house. my mom was so happy that she hugged her so tight and cried a lot, it was the same as today's meeting, but she came with a piece of bad news, that my grandpa was no more, I still remember her Crying on our door.
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It was nighttime, and mom and I were about to have our favorite sandwich with some orange juice, but suddenly We heard a knock on the door of our little home. I looked at mom and was kind of a little scared, cause I thought who will be coming to meet us, then a little hope built in my heart thinking it was grandma and grandpa who want us back.
"Wait here okay" Mom left to attend to the person who was standing at the door after knocking the second time.
Even tho mom told me to wait there, I followed her to the door cause I was scared to stand alone, I walked but stood a little far from my mom who was now opening the door, when mom opened the door I saw aunt Eva standing giving mom a tight smile.
"Eva" After Mom called her name, she suddenly hugged her, sobbing in mom's arms, murmuring something to her that made her sigh slowly.
"I'm sorry Eva" I heard mom muttering to aunt Eva who was still sobbing, mom rubbed Aunt Eva's back, who broke the hug and wiped her tears, she looked at me and smiled at me, but I couldn't look at her so I lean my head down.
Then Aunt Eva and Mommy were sitting in the living room, holding hands, and heard them talking that grandpa was no more, I didn't know what to do so I went back to our room, lying back in the bed holding a pillow, and remembering every moment with my grandpa.
"Grandpa"
It was a tough night for me, cause now I lost my grandfather also, and I couldn't see him for the last time, didn't talk to him and now never be able to talk ever. I took a deep breath, remembering everything that this place, that house, that photo held, all memory and all.
I realized how much I have missed Aunt Eva and grandma, how much I want grandma to still make lunch for me, smile at me, and stroke my hair while I'm sleeping. how much I miss grandpa and dad, how much I miss my happy family.
"I miss you dad and grandpa" A lone tear escaped from my eye while looking at the sky that was revealed that it was evening time.
"it's evening already" I wiped the tear, took a deep breath, and look in front at the waves, the peaceful ocean sound, and the color of the Orange sky.
My eyes landed on a man who was stepping in waves, looking up in the sky, holding his shoes, his jacket in his hands, looking like he Was taking a peaceful walk to soothe his Chaos, he looked at the beach, examining everything with a simple smile, like cherishing the moment he spends here, suddenly his eye landed on me, passing me a smile that I return.
My thought chain was broken by my phone ringing, I took my phone out of my jacket and saw it was mom calling me, I received the call and heard mom's voice.
"Where are you nessa? it's evening already" Before I could reply, I heard Aunt Eva still pleased to stay the night and how was telling no, which made me chuck.
"Eva stop and you Nessa Come home now," Mom said and hung up.
'That place is not home anymore mom'
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