~~~Everyone spends midnight in dreaming and day in looking at their job. But it's quite unique for the restless author Jorngret Reel. She is a night owl. Jorngret Reel's marvelous creations bloom at midnight. She was an excellent and happiest author for the outside world but she is the author who suffers from the inefficiency to sleep. She is an insomnia patient. Her heart is filled with sorrow, which makes her sleep away.~~~
"I wish I could sleep one day."
--- Jorngret Reel
Let's strike out the sorrow behind the smiling face of author Jorngret Reel…
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FIVE YEARS AGO…
It's been hours, the rain does not intend to stop. The rain started raining from the moment Reel went out of her home. It's like someone is crying so hard.
Jorngret Reel drenched in the rain, but nevertheless, she stayed in front of his grave holding the purple Lilacs, his favorite flower which represents the first love.
Reel looked at the gravestone, and she saw his name. "Wang Xiu Ying." The first person who made her feel happiness of being in love. Her first love. It is his remain day. It's his birthday. She didn't control herself from coming here. She want to see him one more.
"Ling Qiao Hui! How dare you come here?" A middle-aged lady wearing black clothes shouted louder.
Reel just got startled. She looked in the direction where the sound was coming from. Her eyes glanced down as she saw her. Despite that, her eyes brimmed with tears. It is Zhi Ruo; Wang Xiu Ying's mother.
Zhi Ruo went towards her in hatred.
"How dare you show up in front of him?" Zhi Ruo asked as she pushed Reel. Reel fell, and it submerged her clothing with the sludge water, and both her knees ache.
"Ayi," Reel called.
"Don't call me Ayi. I'm not your Ayi. Your Ayi died the day when her son gave up his life for you," Zhi Ruo responded with a harsh tone.
"Zhi Ruo! Could you stop speaking about it?" The middle-aged man standing beside the lady wearing the black suit and pants said. It is Wang Lei Bao; Wang Xiu Ying's father.
"Did I say anything wrong? If it's not for her, our son won't be apart from us. It's her who killed our son," Zhi Ruo said.
"Could you just stop saying this, and look ahead. That was an accident, and it was not her fault. It's not because of her our son died, why you can't get it. It's been 10 years. Why can't you forgive her?" Wang Lei Bao inquired.
"I will never forgive her. Ling Qiao Hui, you hear, I will never forgive you," Zhi Ruo screamed louder.
"Ayy, I'm sorry," Reel said by kneeling.
Zhi Ruo screamed and asked, "You feeling sorry. Can your sorry bring back my son?"
Reel looked up with tearful eyes, the question a heartbroken one.
"Ling Qiao! What are you doing? Stood up, daughter," Wang Lei Bao said with tenderness.
"Ling Qiao Hui, doing this won't change my heart. I lost my son because of you. How could I forget it? It's only me who is in pain for these 10 years. I lost my son." Zhi Ruo cried. The sadness of losing one and only her beloved son came out in front of her son's grave.
"I'm sorry," Reel said countless times.
"Shut up!!! Get out of my sight… Otherwise, I will lose my mind. I can't predict what I will do with you," Zhi Ruo screamed louder.
Suddenly Reel felt someone come near her and made her stand up and made her walk from there. She went accordingly. She looked back at the grave while walking.
"Xiu, I miss you. Please forgive me," Reel said in her mind, looking at his Grave, walking away.
The rain ceased but the tears won't. Reel couldn't control herself as the pain and the regret made her mind fall apart. She got drunk to forget the sorrow. Reel sat on the roof area with the liquor bottle, glancing at the dazzling moon.
Drinking alcohol can help forget the thing, but it can't hide the pain. Reel held her heart.
[Drinking alcohol is not good for health…]
"Why is it not working?" She asked while crying. She took another bottle and started to drink it.
She just recalled the words Ayi said to her, "Go die. You killed my son. You are a murder. Go kill yourself. Why don't you die? Go die…"
The thought just made Reel crazy, and her depression came out, "Yes, I'm a murder I killed him!!! I killed him… I killed my first love. I killed…."
Reel cried louder.
"I can't tolerate it anymore. I don't want to live in grief, Ayy is correct; why I'm not die yet? Why I'm still alive for who?" she said heartbrokenly. Drinking alcohol help forgot things but it will help to pull out the things we kept locked inside our heart. It will help to bring out the sadness we are holding. Only the alcohol can bring out the sadness of smiling person.
[Drinking alcohol is not good for health…]
Reel stood up and walked near to the edge. She looked down. She just felt dizzy. The drop of tears that fall from her eyes went down fast and touched the ground it's scattered quickly. Reel suddenly started to laugh. She spread her two arms and looked at the sky. She smiled brightly looking at the beautiful stars.
How can a person smile this bright even she was broken down in to million pieces?
"Xiu, I'm coming to you," Reel said and she just jumped from the roof area to kill herself and release herself from the pain. She closed her eyes tight and felt the air. The forceful air was so cold. Her body was fast moving down but suddenly Reel can't feel the forceful air, it's like someone is holding her in the arm. She opened her eyes quickly as she felt the touching; she saw the sparkling eyes.
Who is that?
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