"My innermost feelings I never showed to anyone and yet... I showed you. Why? Why did it have to be you I surrender and lose to? I fought a battle I could not win."
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(*TRIGGER WARNING!!! Mentions of abuse ahead, if this bothers you in any way please don't read. You have been warned.)
"Yay, wait up!" He shouted after me and I sighed and turned around to face him.
"What do you want?" I asked hoping to get rid of him as soon as possible.
"Coffee." He says making me raise my eyebrow at him.
"What?" I asked in confusion.
"Let me buy you some, since I spilled the first." He suggests to my surprise. I mean if he wants to buy me coffee I don't see anything wrong with that, He did crash into me so its only fair and who am I to refuse free coffee.
I thought for a minute before responding "I guess I'm okay with that."
"Great, Gaja (Let's go)!" He says interlacing his fingers with mine pulling me along with him, making me stumble almost falling over my feet, for a brief moment I thought the feeling of his warm hand on mine was a feeling I could get used to, maybe it was because of the autumn chill which caused my hands to become cold and his hands were the only source of warmth they had all day, but I enjoyed it.
The sound of my phone ringing brought me back to reality as I stopped walking and untangled our hands abruptly, surprising him. I took my phone from my pocket and answered "Nae Eomma (Yes mom).....no you don't need to pick me up...then leave I'm hanging out with a friend for a while...no I'm- Eomma Jebal Ga (Mom please go.) Okay, I'll be home in a bit don't worry, love you too bye."
As I hung up I heard the sound of snickering behind me "What are you laughing at?" I asked him.
"Sounds like your mother really worries about you." He says now smirking at me.
"It's not like that, I don't really "hang out" with my friends that much anymore so she was just surprised and....why am I explaining myself to you." I said in annoyance walking ahead of him.
"Wait up! You don't even know where we're going, why is she always leaving me behind?" He mumbles catching up to me. "My car is over there the Red SUV." He says to me as we reach the car park.
"Huh, nice car." I commented in a surprised voice.
"What's with the exaggeration in your voice?" He questions giving me a look.
"It's nothing." I simply replied opening the door to the front seat and getting in, he sighed tilting his head to the side in annoyance before he did the same.
We drove in awkward silence for a while before he cleared his throat "So I'm your friend now." He mischievously says referring to my earlier conversation with my Mom.
"Don't get caught up, I said that to avoid my mother asking questions, if I said I was with a boy she'd ask a lot of ridiculous questions which I'd rather not answer." I said to him.
"What kind of questions?" He says focusing on the road but occasionally glancing at me.
"I can't tell if you're playing dumb or if you're being serious." I said turning my head to look at him and he did the same as we stopped at a red light.
"I'm serious." He says making me roll my eyes.
"Forget it, I'm done talking to you." I said to him folding my arms looking out the window, as we returned to silence.
The cafe we went to wasn't that far away from the school so we arrived rather quickly. As I got out of the car I got a message from the girls wondering where I was.
Siyeon
I left first guys, we'll talk later, so don't wait for me( ˘ ³˘)❤
Sua
Wish you had given me a heads up first.
Seol
I'm willing to bet she's not alone~~~
Joey
Ouuuu ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°
Siyeon
Stop that, I am, I just need to run some errands for my mother so we'll talk when I'm home alright guys?
Joey, Sua, Seol
Alright.
I sighed and rolled my eyes and placed the phone into my pocket with a slight smile. I sensed someone was staring at me so I turned around to see Baekhyun looking at me rather strangely.
"What?" I asked.
"I just haven't seen you smile like that since we met." He says to me.
"We've literally only known each other for an hour." I said as we entered the cafe and he held the door open for me.
"I know, Yeppeuda (Its pretty), Jinja Yeppeuda (Really pretty)." He said following behind me, I stopped walking to look at him.
It hadn't been that long since someone told me that, guys hit on me all the time and I usually ignored them but why is it that my heart just skipped a beat when he said it?
"What will you be having?" He asked bringing me out of my thoughts.
"A latte." I replied and he nodded going to place our order.
As I waited for him to return I found a nice seat by the window so I could look outside, I then scroll through my phone for a while.
"Well, well, well what do we have here?" A voice that sent a shiver down my spine, a voice that made the hair on the back of my neck stand up upon hearing it chuckled.
I slowly lifted my head up taking my time, letting my eyes start from his shoes and go up as I prayed he wasn't who I feared he was.
When our eyes met my heartbeat sped, my eyes widened, everything he did to me started flashing briefly before me. My breathing was hitched, I felt as though I could pass out but I wasn't going to let him see that or my fear.
"You." I was barely able to say before my hands started shaking and it wasn't because of the cold. He looks at my shaking hands and smirks causing me to place them into my pockets, he then steps forward. "Don't come any closer!" I shouted standing to my feet backing away from him.
He smiles with arrogance "Or what? You're going to taddle on me? Your friends aren't here to protect you this time, you seemed to have forgotten but," He pauses coming closer, towering above me "You're mine." He finishes, his eyes not leaving mine as he says those words.
"You crazy bastard." I spat with hatred, he scuffs at my words before reaching his hand out and grabbing my wrist. "Bonaejwo!!! (Let me go!!!)" I said to him, my voice not betraying me sounding as firm and unafraid as I wanted it to.
"But I don't want to." He refuses, instead he tightened his grip to the point where it began to hurt me.
"Yay! She told you to let her go." Baekhyun's voice sounds as he grabs his hand and drags it off mine, he then stands in front of me so that he came between us, he holds my hand giving me a reassuring smile before looking back at Sin-jae.
"Who do you think you are?!" Sin-jae asks in annoyance and anger looking down at Baekhyun as he was taller.
"I'm her boyfriend," Baekhyun says suddenly making me look at him like he was insane. "And I don't like the way you were touching her." He added and my heart sunk when he did, and it wasn't because I was touched, it was more like because I was worried for his safety, he then interlaced our fingers which Sin-jae saw. I couldn't tell if he was trying to help me or make things worst by provoking him.
Sin-jae grabs Baekhyun by the jacket, raises his fist and was about to punch him when Baekhyun says "Punch me if you want but I wouldn't, not with all these people watching." He points at the on lookers who had their phones out recording us whispering to each other.
Sin-jae looks around before mumbling "You're not even worth it." Before he storms out of the cafe.
I released a breath of relief, I then hunched over closing my eyes to calm myself down, slowly breathing in and out with my hand on my chest.
"Gwaenchanha? (Are you okay?)" He asked me and I nodded.
"Are you crazy?! What if he had actually hit you?! Why did you even get involved?!!" I started questioning him for the reckless thing he did.
"I didn't think that far ahead." He says with an awkward laugh making me sigh. "And I got involved because it looked like you needed it." He adds.
He was right I did need it and I was beyond grateful that he intervened.
"Can we go somewhere else? I don't think I can stay here after that." I asked him and he nods bringing our coffee with him as we left the cafe.
We came to a park instead, sitting on a bench that over looked a pond.
"Here." Baekhyun says handing me my drink and I thanked him taking a sip letting it warm me up a little as I enjoyed the scenery. "If you don't mind me asking, who exactly was that jerk?" he suddenly asked.
I looked at him and thought for a moment about whether or not I should tell him, we did just meet but... he did save me so...I guess I can trust him enough to tell him. I took a deep breath in preparing myself for the scars I was about to reopen.
* "It's a long story so bare with me... He and I use to date, Sin-jae was my close friend up until two years ago, I thought my feelings for him were one-sided but it turned out he felt the same way, when we began dating at first everything was fine, it was everything I wanted but with time Sin-jae changed, he became obsessive and aggressive, he started keeping tabs on me, he'd literally have people follow me around, if I was with other guys who were my friends or anything, he'd get upset, I remember one time he fought with some of them and when I defended them he... he hit me.
"When those things started happening I knew something was wrong so I told my friends about everything and they tried their best to help me avoid him by making up excuses for me, After I finally broke up with him, he broke into my house and tried to make me stay with him, saying things like 'I'm sorry, it'll never happen again, I promise' When he saw I wasn't buying any of it that son of a bitch knocked me out with a glass bottle...and tried to kidnap me." I told him trying my best not to cry but to no avail as tears began to stream down my cheeks.
"I was lucky he didn't get a chance to do anything because my parents came home just then. But you know the worst part is he didn't get arrested even though the evidence was clear just because his family was rich, they sent him away and I thought that would be the last time I saw him, guess not. He's the reason I can't easily trust anyone, he was such a good friend to me I just....I never imagined that he was a two-faced bastard, that person....he ruined my life." I finished, wiping my face but the tears just kept on coming, Baekhyun takes my face in his hands and wipes my tears away pulling me into his arms, I bury my face into his chest as he pats my head running his fingers through my hair gently and lovingly.
"Shhh its okay, uljima (Don't cry), I'm sorry I asked okay, I was wrong, So don't cry." He comforts and I hold my head up to look at him with my tear stained face.
"Geunde wae... (But why...) are you crying too?" I asked in confusion seeing his tears as well.
"I'm not crying." He denies turning his face away from me, and I smiled as I lifted my hand up and wiped his face just like he did for me.
He was actually crying for me, I guess you really are a good person. I thought.
"Cute." I whispered and hopefully he didn't hear me.
"I mean who wouldn't cry after hearing something like that and then the look on your face was so heartbreaking, I just couldn't take it." He rabbles trying to defend himself.
"Alright, alright." I laugh a bit finally letting him go. "Thanks for comforting me." I said patting his head and he stares at me for a long moment before clearing his throat.
"What's with this gloomy mood all of a sudden." He says jumping to his feet suddenly. "That's it, Gaja. (Let's go)" He says pulling me up, he interlaced our fingers and began running taking me with him.
"Yay! Where are you taking me?!" I expressed at his sudden action.
"You'll see soon." He replies with a laugh.
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(A/N) If you like this book you can check out my contracted work: 'The Claytonia's Curse.' as well!