Seraphine thought that if nobody would end up loving her genuinely, she would just have to repel them as early as possible.
That way, she won't be hurt anymore. No one would lead her on with their kind gestures. At the same time, she won't have to deceive anyone again. It is better to stay alone than be left alone in the end.
'When I asked myself what was worse – having no one loving you or ending up being betrayed by the ones you loved, I have now realized that it would be the latter…' Seraphine brooded silently as she continued splashing more mud all over herself.
'Perhaps, that is just how things are meant to be. I'm meant to live on my own.'
Contrary to her gloomy thoughts, what she is doing now makes her look like a wild animal who has escaped from its cage for the very first time.
