I was done fighting wars especially after the last one where I lost my husband to it, sometimes I kept thinking perhaps Yishen would have still lived if I hadn't pushed him to fighting my war. Actually it wasn't even my war to speak of, it was Yae Lin's but Yae Lin lived inside me and I owed her that much.
But then the war ended and I didn't have neither of them alive anymore. Neither my husband nor Yae Lin, the war took both of them from my life.
And now I was faced with another war in front of me and who knows what that would take from me - I feared for Lee's life. If I lost him too then that's it, I would never come back from that kind of loss again.
"What are you thinking Your Majesty?" A'Chu asked me. I even forgot that she hadn't left the room and she was sitting in front of me.
"A'Chu!"
"You forgot that I was here, didn't you?"
