Alexander was silent as we had breakfast together this morning. He just asked me a little, and I realized maybe he was still upset about the events of the night before.
The night we didn't meet at all, because he came home every night. I've fallen asleep and not seen it at all. What am I supposed to do? Do I have to make a charade not knowing it for the sake of this political cooperation? Sacrificing my feelings and allowing myself to be queened among his harem? I better kill myself! But if I fight that, maybe my clan position will be compromised.
Maybe a temporary return to London will make me think more clearly before my engagement. Maybe I'm more able to accept my tragic circumstances? Really?
"You want to go back to London this afternoon? I'll take you back." I heard his logos words the following day at the dinner table.
