Imagine this. You watch as your friends laughed away without a single care in the world. You shared the feeling no doubt, although, deep inside you, you felt this familiar numbness. This sign of self-destruction. A bad omen of sorts. However, you accept fate and life for what it is and will be, simply because this was a part of you.
People fail to understand, that once you look deep enough, you're not looking for anything. You're simply looking at yourself. The cheers slowly die and everything becomes blurry. Your vision is focused on your two friends who now seemed closer than before. You want that, no. You yearn for that.
Every time you reach out, every time your hand moves closer to that vision. You can feel it, slowly moving away. Was it you that the vision found repulsive? Was it simply your mind tricking you?
