"Hyung, I'm in love with you. I've been in love with ever since the day I met you for the first time as my colleague. I just never had enough courage to confess my feelings for you, Hyung. I have always feared that you'd reject me or even hate me. And I can't stand that."
Taeil wanted to scream his heart out. Why was that happening to him? What did he do to deserve that? He was here to make it up to his lover… Make it up to his lover.
"I love you so much Taeil, will you accept my love and be my boyfriend?"
The elder couldn't hold anymore and tears started rolling down his cheeks. Jungwoo started worrying and seemed at the verge of tears himself. The sight warned Taeil and he used all his remaining strength to offer a nod. And then the worried expression on the latter's face changed into a happy one. As happy as if he got the moon from the sky.
"C-can I kiss you?" The younger asked to which Taeil again gave a nod.
Soon a pair of lips locked his lips and it was the first time that the pair was not Dongyoung's. He felt sting. He felt pain and mostly regretful. He wanted to push the latter away and disappear from there. His heart ached painfully in his chest knowing the fact that he couldn't do either of that.
He didn't even know why in the world he was even doing such a stupid thing like that. But as long as it would keep Dongyoung satisfied, he'd try his best to keep up with whatever agony he had to deal with.
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It would be a big lie if Dongyoung wouldn't admit how painful it was to see his lover in his brother's arms. The way he touched Taeil, kissed Taeil and loved Taeil.
He still remembered the day when Jungwoo had confessed his love to his boyfriend and how they kissed for the first time. How Taeil was kissed for the first time by someone who was not him.
He didn't plan to witness that but he doubted if Taeil wouldn't obey him and leave. And a part of him actually wanted that Taeil would leave but the majority hoped for the opposite which fortunately happened.
He felt stabbed every time they were around him being all lovey-dovey or more like only Jungwoo being affectionate to Taeil but at the same time, he felt much relieved seeing his brother always full of delight, glee and happiness.
He actually wished that Taeil would be affectionate to his brother though. Yes. It would pang him in the chest for a moment but he would rather deal with that than seeing his beloved brother being rejected. Rejected by his lover who claimed that he'd do anything he wanted but couldn't please his brother even a bit.
Thankfully Jungwoo was so in love with the elder that he didn't notice Taeil always trying to be with Dongyoung. Or trying to sneak into their house to meet the said man.
Dongyoung obviously wanted to forget everything and let Taeil sneak into his room. Spend his moment with him. Make love to him and keep him to himself and himself only away from the entire world's reach. But he couldn't do that. At least not anymore. If he wouldn't stop himself now then he couldn't stop himself ever. And he had to stop all those things and his feelings in order to get Taeil and Jungwoo together.
Well, He knew that Taeil was just as in pain as him or even more than that. He even knew that the latter must have hated him at some points for that but he believed that Taeil would fall for Jungwoo eventually. If not later, then sooner. But it must happen. Dongyoung must make it happen. Especially after that certain night when he found his baby brother crying silently in his room.
"Woo-ah? What's wrong little bro? Will you please open the door for Hyungie?"
"I'm fine Doyoung Hyung. Please leave me alone." Came from the inside of the room and Jungwoo's sniffles could be heard which made the elder worry even more than he already was.
"Jungwoo please… Let Hyung know what's wrong. I sure will help you with whatever you're going through. Please just don't do this to yourself. You have promised mom and dad you'll always tell your big bro when you feel hurt. So, you're gonna break your promise? Mom and dad would get hurt if you'd do."
Dongyoung heard footsteps reaching and creaking of the door opening.
Jungwoo seemed so down with his eyes puffy and red. A few tears still were rolling down to his cheeks and his face was looking even more fluffy because of the swelling.
Dongyoung couldn't take any move to sooth his brother as the latter had hugged the shorter male in a sudden. The elder then rubbed Jungwoo's back soothingly.
The younger one started sniffling. His tears wetting Dongyoung's shirt and it hurt Dongyoung knowing that his little brother was crying. Crying so vulnerably for the first after that dark day when they were left by their parents alone in this world.
That reminded Dongyoung how Jungwoo had been depressed and broken at that time. How dull, dead and helpless he had been… No. He couldn't let that happen again. He must get his brother's back. He must make it up for him this time round.
"Here, come with me." He led the younger towards his bed and made him sit as he patted his back gently to calm him down.
"Now tell me. What's wrong? What made my little brother cry?"
Jungwoo sniffled as he shook his head while answering, "He doesn't love me, Hyung."
Dongyoung frowned a little in confusion before interrogating further. "Who doesn't love you Woo-ah?"
"Taeil, Hyung. He doesn't love me! He doesn't like when I touch him or show my affection to him. He flinches and even pushes me away. The only thing I can do is kiss but he barely even returns that. I feel like I'm forcing him, Hyung. I'm forcing him oh gosh…" The younger then again started shedding fresh tears and it broke Dongyoung's heart.
Well, multiple reasons broke Dongyoung's heart after receiving that certain information from his brother's mouth. Knowing that his lover was being touched the way he used to broke his heart. Knowing that he wouldn't be Taeil's last broke his heart. But none of them were more heartbreaking than the fact that his brother was broken and crying. His duty as a big brother was his priority after all.
He hugged the latter and ruffled his hair. "Just this? Oh Woo-ah… It's not a big deal and you're not forcing him in any way. Maybe he just needs some time? It's normal for some people. Don't worry about it."
"Really Hyung? He doesn't hate me?" Jungwoo asked, pouting and showing his puppy eyes.
The elder pinched his cheek softly and said, "No. He doesn't and he never will. He's just as in love with you as you're in with him. Just give it sometime and things will be better for both of you. Trust your Big Bro."
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"Sir, have I interrupted you in the middle of something? I was trying to call you but guess you weren't available at that moment. Are you still busy, should I leave?"
"Yes Jaehyun? Oh, I'm sorry I was struck with these mails so I couldn't pick your call. Well, I'm still a bit struck but it's fine. Tell me what's up?"
The latter seemed a bit unsure and somewhat blushing? What was it he had to say?
"Ahh… Taeil Hyung is here, and he wants to see you. Should I let him in?"
The latter made an intimidating expression at the mention of the name as he huffed while nodding. Jaehyun just nodded in response and left immediately not spending another minute with his boss in an intimidating state.
After a few minutes there was another knock on the cabin door but it got already opened without a verbal permission.
"So you ordered Jae to not let me in until you permit, huh Doyoung? You want to stay away from me that much? You dislike my presence this much?" Taeil asked as he approached the younger's side. Though, he didn't receive any answer. Not even a glance.
"Why Doie? Why are you doing this to me?" He interrogated again in a defeated tone this time. Dongyoung did look at him this time but only to give a fierce and enraged look.
"Please Doyoung… You said that you won't avoid me anymore if I'd obey you. That you'd pay attention to me if I'd do whatever you want…"
"Yet you couldn't even do a single thing I asked you!" Dongyoung yelled and banged the table surface harshly startling the latter.
"I did what you wanted. I am in a relationship with your brother and he sneaks into my house every time he wants to please himself." The elder exclaimed as a few tears started rolling through from as eyes. He was kind of scared because of the extremely intimidating aura of the younger.
Dongyoung took a breath calming himself down before saying, "But he's not being pleased, Taeil. He is not receiving the affection, the attention and the feeling from you that he's craving for. Be it cuddles, kisses or even sex."
Taeil gasped as he looked at his lover in shock. "No. No Doyoung you can't-"
"Yes I can and I want! I want you to please him. I want you to satisfy him. Yes, I want you to have sex with him."
"Please Doyoung… I can't! We had promised to be each other's last."
"Promises are meant to be broken, Taeil. What matters is what it takes to keep up with love. And all you have to do is just-"
"No! No, no, no…" Taeil's voice started muffling as he broke down in tears while shaking his head and denying constantly to obey his lover.
Dongyoung moved towards the latter and wrapped his arms around him. Taeil being the smitten he was for the younger, melted into his touch instantly while inhaling Dongyoung's scent he desired every time.
"Taeillie…" Dongyoung whispered into the latter's ear affectionately and a light moan was made by the elder man at the sensation.
"Yes, Doie." He said hazily, too lost in his world made of Dongyoung's figure.
"Do you love me?"
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"Taeil, I've brought some new novel editions for your library babe."
"Awhh Woo-ah. Thank you so much. You always tend to bring something whenever you come huh. That's so sweet." The elder said as he took the books from the younger and placed them onto the nightstand.
"Can't help, love. My Moon deserves the entire universe." Jungwoo said fondly as he wrapped the shorter's waist and leaned down to capture his lips.
They kissed passionately for a few moments and soon they were on Taeil's bed.
Jungwoo started trailing down the latter's neck sucking and leaving fresh bruises. Taeil started leaving sinful noises which just made Jungwoo wild. It always did though.
He then started sliding his hand inside the elder's shirt. Taeil shivered lightly and he pulled away immediately.
"I'm sorry, babe. I should understand if you need sometime…"
The younger started taking his hands off but Taeil stopped him. "No. It's just, I'm just nervous Woo-ah. But, I want this. I want you."
Jungwoo felt as if he was dreaming for a second. That couldn't be happening. At least not that quickly. His luck couldn't be that good in a sudden. "A-are you sure babe? It's fine. Don't force it up Taeil. I don't want to hurt you."
"Yes, love. I need you. Please…"
"Well if that's what my Moon wants, who am I to refuse?"
That night, another part of Taeil was broken. As well as his promise to be Dongyoung's last.