Noah Gilbert was a person who was always the one to keep quite. Since his childhood he had lived under the cloud of rumours which stated that he had killed his mother by being born.
After giving birth to Noah, Roseanne, Xander Gilbert's first wife and the first duchess, constantly suffered from something or other.
She was weak and no one could deny her health was declining. She died with the thoughts of Xander having an affair with Nilla. Later on Nilla did marry the duke and became Noah's step mother, but it was too late for Noah since his family had already fallen apart a long time ago. Or maybe there was never a family to begin with.
Eventually he came to understand that even everyone will try to sympathize with him and try to build friendship with him there will always remain a gap between them since he was the son and heir of the biggest dukedom of Aartals and no one would ever come close enough to him with the matters of status.