I waited in a clearing, Dylan saying he wanted to spare, but how long would he make me wait? Finally, I look at a tree and decide to practice on it.
I could sense that a few royal guards were around, probably watching me, but why? We are safe here; it's not like I can be hurt.
After a bit, I sense Dylan behind me and Turn to him. "Took you long enough, now where are we going to train?" I was annoyed he took so long, but I was also annoyed that I needed to make a group to do missions with, I have no experience in leading people, and now I am being given something this important.
"Are you going to be grouchy the entire time, or are you going to snap out of this and act your age?" His tone told me he wasn't happy at all with how I was acting, but I could tell something else was bothering him. "I know you don't like what was thrown on you, but we don't always get to choose things in life. I have already gone and done things that I didn't want to; you've just been sheltered all your life."
This was not like Dylan at all, something was bothering him, and he was snapping at me for it, but what gave him the right to do that? I didn't ask to be sheltered; I didn't ask for all of this! So why should I listen to him?. I turn away and spread my wings. "If you think that, then why don't I just leave you to sulk by yourself?" I took off, leaving him behind. I hear him call after me, but I ignore him.
As I fly, I lose the royal guards that try to follow me and just fly somewhere, anywhere, away from all this. After a bit, I feel my parents try to reach my mind, but I close them out; I just want to be alone, not to deal with all of this. As I fly, I find a small clearing and land in it. I could tell my dragon wanted to say something, but she didn't, and I was glad; I just wanted to be alone right now. I sit against a tree and cast a spell to hide me.
"As I rest there, I let my mind go, letting my senses wander and just relax; when was the last time I could do this? Just be outside, away from everything? I was always at the capital, always followed and protected. I never wanted all of this, but now everyone acts like I need to take charge. Why me? Why can't someone else who's better at it take control? Why can't I just live a peaceful life with Grey? Would he scold me for this? Would he tell me I'm childish? Or would he just hug me like always?
I look up to the sky, watching the clouds move and feel the wind against me. This is what I need, A place to be myself, without anyone judging me, without anyone telling me what to do. I closed my eyes and let my mind wander as I began to fall asleep.
I woke up as the sun began to set and looked around. Should I head back? Should I apologize?... Why? I didn't do anything wro- wait, is that My mother? I could see her sitting in the clearing with animals around her. She looked almost like an angel, or maybe a nature spirit. I get up and walk over, sitting beside her. What should I say? How did she find me? Will I be chastised? Should I fly away?
"You don't need to run Sendria; I am only here to talk." She motions for me to sit beside her. I pet a wolf that laid its head on my lap.
"I..I.." My mother raises her hand, and I just look away, not sure what to say
"You don't need to say anything Sendria, just listen. We know you don't like all this, you feel like it's all too much too quickly, and your father and I understand, we didn't want this, but it is what happened, and now we work with what the world gives us."
I sigh and lay down. I know she's right, but I don't like it, all this responsibility when I barely had to do anything days before, now I am leading people and in a war.
"Sendria, do you know what we had planned for you before the demons invaded?" she looks over at me, and I shrug; I knew they had many things planned out for me.
"We wanted you to go with Ranha and me to some nations and see how politics are handled, then maybe a visit to the kingdom of magic to learn things there, and we wanted you to learn things and choose what you want in life slowly, we live a long time after all, but the world seems to of had other ideas."
She looks to the sky and watches the birds. I know she's right, but this is still so much for me.
"I know you are overwhelmed, but we can't help it. You have always been destined for greatness, Sendria; it's simply that your time is coming sooner than we thought."
I sit next to her and lean against her. "What if I can't do it? What if I mess up?" That was honestly my biggest worry; I didn't want any of them hurt, especially not because of me.
"I know it's scary, but life is scary as well. So many unknowns, and we must live with it all and deal with it. But you aren't alone."
I smile and sigh. "I know your right, but I still don't like it." She was right, and I knew that I would be more working with them than leading them, but it still made me nervous, if anything.
"Sitting here and sulking won't do any good. You need to go out and meet them, practice together and get better at working together, then you and the others can be a good team, able to show that you are on the right track." She seemed to know what to say to convince me and help, but I could tell she was also thinking of something else.
"Mom, what are you thinking about? You don't sound entirely here." I looked at her and could see the worry in her eyes briefly before she hid it.
"There are many things I think about, but that doesn't mean I don't mean what I am saying."
"Mom, what's wrong?" I was worried about her expression, then she looked at me but it no longer felt like her, it was something else as I then looked around and saw the world getting dark.
"It's time to wake up and get things done. I hope you find your path, Sendria, and don't let them tell you what to do." She kisses my head as I black out then wake up, wondering what just happened. "Was I dreaming? Who was she? It didn't seem like it was my mother but then what?" This confused her, but she sighed and got up, the message still evident.
"I guess I must go back and do what I can."
I let my wings out and then wondered to myself, "why did she pretend to be my mother? To teach me something?" I shake my head; there was no use thinking about it now, I should have back.
I fly into the sir and enjoy the wind, and maybe I can just fly around with Grey for a bit, just the two of us. I let my mind go as I almost mindlessly fly back, not caring how long I took.
As she got back and descended, she saw her father flying up to her and sighed as she tried to avoid him but it was pointless and he was a better flier.
"Sendria Elzax! Where were you!?"
The anger and worry in his voice were evident as he got close and I sighed continuing to fly down, knowing I'm about to be scolded.
"Do you have any idea how worried your mother and I were? You are-"
"And what!? Can't I just be alone for a few moments? Do I have to constantly be dogged by your men?"
I land and storm off, still in dragon form.
I know my father is following, trying to talk to me but I ignore him. He tries to grab my arm but I push him away. "I'm not a child! So leave me alone."
He lets go and sighs, looking like someone is talking to him in his mind before he walks off, I go to my room, wanting to be alone again, as it seemed everyone had a complaint, why did it seem I couldn't do anything right?
Once I was in my room I lay on my bed, but looking at my body I needed a shower. I look into my closet, getting another pair of clothes to wear after then feel something behind me, but no one had entered the door, and I know what it feels like when Dylan appears. I look behind me to see Retsuko, she hugged me and after my surprise, I hug back sighing.
After a bit, she would let go and take my hand. "You need a shower, so I'll wash you and we can talk."
I chuckle and nod, liking the idea, and knowing she wouldn't be judging, though why her eyes seemed to have a slight glow I didn't know.
I undress and sit on a stool in the shower as Retsuko increases with me and gets the water going.
She washed my back without saying anything, but I didn't feel right just sitting here as she washed me. "So..why are you here? I'm guessing you heard what I did..did Dylan send you? Or my father?"
She shakes her head and chuckles, seeming to find this amusing for some reason.
"I get away all the time..people don't suit me..many try to idolize me, but you know why, and understand how I feel."
I nod and chuckle as well. "Both of us are special in our own way, and with your sister, I can see why you like to be alone, but I wish I was able to go to my own place, but the one I got made a few years ago might not be safe."
I lean back into her chest then remember that she was leaving with May. "We weren't you supposed to leave with May?"
"Yeah, but why would I do that? I go where I want, and I want to be with you and my brother."
I sigh and shake my head, looking at her. "They will want to take you back you know? Keep you safe."
She didn't respond but kept washing me, eventually, I spoke up, cutting the silence. "What will you do while you're here? You do know that you can't join my force, you are not trained enough."
"I know, I just can't say away when there's so much happening here."
I knew how she felt, but I also one how much May and Dylan cared for her and wanted to protect her.
I notice a look in her eyes that I had seen before with my mother and father at times, fear for another, of someone getting hurt. I grab her hand as she washes my front and hugs her. "Your afraid something will happen, and you will be alone, or lose those who you are connected to."
I could feel her surprise but then I feel her relax and return the hug. "I barely have them both and I can't lose them..they're the only family I have, the only one that understand me."
I know how she felt as I felt at times like only Dylan or my parents understood me while everyone else expected too much from me.
"We can hang out together for a bit and try to come up with something, as talking and company can be good."
She turned to me, her eyes blue, sounding different.
"You speak like you do not have your own things to worry about, but in reality, you just wish to forget it all and run, but you can't, you must stand. Not for yourself, not for your family, but for your people, and you feel the weight."
This threw me off and I stepped back, shocked, then her eyes changed back to normal. "Sorry, Blue wanted to talk, and I thought it would be good..maybe we should stop the shower and just cuddle? Hopefully, take our mind off it for a bit."
She gets up and dries off, seeing her body I'm reminded how she and May have very nice bodies that would make most guy's mouth water, but now isn't the time to admire her body. I dry off and go to my bed.
She climbs into bed with me and we cuddle, I smile and nuzzle her, getting what almost sounded like a purr.