ICY'S POV
I woke up on the right side of the bed it was the weekend of course who wouldn't be glad I get to sleep in whenever and however I want ,most people have a lot to do on the weekends but not me I really just spend my day watching Netflix and I hardly eat even on the weekends but my therapist has helped a lot and I found out I have a thing for Asian food but little by little we are progressing, I might order Thai food later but that depends on my cravings today or I might just have salad as Deborah says "That ain't food girl we need to get more flesh on you " I chuckled as I remembered all her nagging she went to the club with her boyfriend and I bet I ain't seeing her until Sunday night only when she is being considerate,I am so very lazy today I shouted and it echoed through the house I usually have a habit of just staying and the screaming out of excitement over nothing really but it just feels nice once in a while but of recent I tend to do that alot but my suspicion might be connected to a certain someone, I am a daydreamer but this is off the charts .
Cleaning the house isn't going to be a hassle because it's always spotless so only a few things needed to be done
"Alexa play me all BTS songs " the first song that came on was "DNA" I imagined myself as one of the members and danced but got cleaning I was a lover of music so they were speakers connected even down to my bathroom I liked to sing along when doing anything at all that always got the job done easily and faster and I'm always in a better headspace when I got to the kitchen I told Alexa to play my sex songs and Mmmhhh by Kai followed and I felt super sexy and I started all my sexy moves at this stage I feel it definitely has something to do with Yesser. I don't want to build hopes but a girl can only dream and I tend to over think things but sometimes I just go with my gut , like the decision to sign Yesser, my phone started ringing and I ran to pick the call and placed it on loud speaker it was Josh
"hey sexy , how are you doing today"
"as always I'm cool what's up ?"
"well just wanted to ask if you were up for some partying tonight"
"not in the mood Josh I just want to relax and sleep in I might change my mind though but at the moment I am not interested "
"oh bummer cos there are gonna be some hot guys "
"I'll pass haha funny "
"well your loss bye "
"bye " and the line went dead I sighed and continued my songs I headed towards the bathroom I am going to spend an hour in the shower today whew ! I smiled and stripped the water was ready my graceful bubble bath I closed my eyes as I felt the warm water embracing me and u felt all my strained muscles relaxing, oh how I love the weekend .
After my long relaxing bath , I headed to the door my delivery was here , I ordered Jamjammeyon (black bean noodles) one serving though I wouldn't even finish it but I would still be happy at least I won't draw attention to myself again like before , I have Bulimia nervosa and so I usually find it hard when I have another one of my episodes. I haven't spoken to my parents in a long time and I am fine I mean I didn't want anyone forcing me to do what I don't want to do , and that relationship between my parents and I is toxic so I'll pass I didn't quite know when it started but, I think I developed my eating disorder as a result of my mom's Constant nagging but I feel so much better with Jason's company now I wasn't even halfway with my food and Netflix when my phone rang the caller ID showed it was Yesser my heart rate increased but I paid no attention to it I cleared my throat and I spoke
"hello "
"hi I hope I'm not disturbing or interrupting anything?"
"no you are not" I chuckled ...I am as lazy as anything so shoot "
"well I wanted to call and check up on you to see how you were doing"
"thank you so much for your kind gesture, I'm good just lazying about the house bored " I don't know why I said the last part though but I had hope he would say we should hangout .
"well I have a shoot today do you wanna come along then maybe we could grab dinner after that ?"
"uhmm let me check my schedule...I pretended to check by keeping quiet I cleared my throat and said "sure I'm free you can come pick me up"
"ok send me the address I'm on my way "
I started to panic what will I wear so I just decided to go with my Tommy Hilfiger dark blue jeans that had a jacket as well a white Nike bra top and my white Crocs and my dark shades I put my hair in a high ponytail I decided to go makeup free just nude lipstick with lipgloss over it I was fine when I heard the door bell ring
"hey !" he sounded surprised
"hi why do you sound shocked ?"
"well I thought I was going to have to wait a long time for you to prepare but it seems you beat stereotypical sayings about women " he said smiling
"I get that alot "
"you look good by the way "
"thanks , shall we?" I said and he opened the door and we both left after I locked the door and we drove off
"I like the fact that you treat me normal "
"how? I don't get why not "
"well people usually ain't themselves around me but you are not like that you are just comfortable with whatever you do I mean you don't go out of your way to look very beautiful it comes naturally to you " he said and I saw a tinge of blush in his cheeks wow straight forward much
"thanks Yesser " the car stopped in front of the place he was having the shoot I was used to this kind of stuff but I never realized that they were going to be female models here and suddenly that changed my mood , I became so sulky he must have noticed because he put his hands on my shoulders and when I looked at him he just said "don't fret "I felt brightened a little bit and just forced a smile
Yesser was in the dressing room and I spotted Lee who waved at me I dropped my milkshake and waved back at him I smiled genuinely, 8 feel Lee is a good person for Yesser and without a good manager Yesser probably would be lost in this big and complicated industry, I was enjoying the last of my milkshake when Yesser came out I almost chocked on my drink he looked like Adonis himself he wore a jeans that hung dangerously low below his waist the shirt he was wearing was opened and his body was out for the world to see his chest was hairless like a baby's skin his abs were so firm I felt myself drooling I could climb those abs without falling my eyes went to the V line oh my God if body parts were weapons I'd literally be dead this very minute I cleared my throat and looked away then I say I wasn't the only one looking at him all the ladies were even some guys wished he could swing their way but all this while he wasn't even noticing or maybe he was used to it already I mean doing underwear shoots with him will be killer just then I saw a lady strutting to meet him she felt the world under her feet he was still talking to Lee when she interrupted them and placed her hands on his arm he subtly detangled their hands and excused himself by walking straight to the photographer.
The shoot was halfway through and man was I tired I literally could fall asleep on the couch right now but I imagined myself with him in front of that photographer I just sighed and looked at my phone and laughed because of something Josh sent , I really am grateful for Yesser inviting me to the shoot but I keep getting better stares from all the models here like I stole their possession or something I mean they should lay off the pipe a bit but at the same time I feel that are looking at me because I'm not slim enough or hot enough to be in their circle and that thought brought my mood down a whole lot I just excused myself and went to the balcony to get fresh air oh man I want to get out of here real quick even at the agency I preferred to stay back unless it was important and I'm grateful Jason understands because like he said my mental health is all that matters to him but he still doesn't know why I don't like pictures I sighed and looked at the view.