Shena smiled happily as she held her diploma tightly. Her heart was beating so fast with the sheer excitement felt. She has finally graduated from Senior High School.
She will only have to put up with being a part-time student for a few years. She is the Assistant Chef at their School Canteen because she is good at cooking. That is why she is the favorite of their Principal. She is known in their school for her diligence and intelligence.
Aside from the Chef Assistant, she also belongs to the Student Council. She is the Vice president on the campus, and she has put some efforts to organize events, together with the other officers.
Aside from that, she also helps gardeners, because she likes to take care of plants. She really doesn't know why she seems to be hypnotized by the beauty of the plants. She is the type of woman who love nature. It gives her peace, and it relaxes her when there are some problems that occur.
And at night, Shena works as a waiter at a food chain in the mall. Even though she is tired from work, Shena never forgets to play the Farming Game that she loves. She is just like other students who have fun. But of course no one knows that. Everyone thinks she is a grade conscious, hard striving student, but she is not.
Shena stopped in her mind and for a moment the smile faded, when she saw all the students there, had their own parents. Even though most of the student, teachers and her co-council congratulate her, she still can't forget to ask why this is happening to her, Where are her parents?
Yes, she almost gets the whole medals and awards, but she doesn't have a parent to hook her for those.
"Shena, do you want to join? We will have a party after our dinner with my parents." Kate happily offered to me, the Secretary of the school council.
"Thanks, but I can't ... I still have work ...." she apologetically smiled at her.
She turned around immediately before she could speak.
Everybody pities her, even if they don't show it, she feels it.
Shena shuddered at the tears welling up in her eyes. She really didn't want to look miserable. Her pride was high, so no One saw her crying and became weak in front of the crowd.
Of course except when she was still in the Orphanage. She was the most crying and weak of all the children there. She was very grateful to the nuns there, especially to Sister Joy who was strict but very sensible.
Shena's heart lightened, and she smiled remembering her life in the foster home. She wanted to go back there, but she didn't want to be a burden.
Shena held up her diploma and happily looked at the dark sky. She closes her eyes and feels the cold breeze. It comforts her.
Shena went home first after escaping the invitations of the parents of her friend, teacher and even Principal Dr. Fontonalgo. She was invited to join a grand party at their house, but he refused.
She wants to be alone first.
Before going home, she bought beer and chips at a convenience store that he also knew the owner of. Fortunately, she was allowed because she was only 18 last year.
"Congrats Che" Roy the shopkeeper of the small store said to her with a smile. It's just near the house she's renting.
Che became its nickname for him.
She also reciprocated with a smile as he took the plastic bag and change it.
"Thank you, Roy ..."
As usual, its cheeks are red.
She knows he likes her. Even if the young man didn't admit it to him, She wasn't naive to not know that. Roy is a good-looking man, kind and also rich, but she doesn't see him something romantically. She never did.
"Che, maybe you want someone with you ... maybe if you close this store first, so you can have time ..." that wasn't a question, a persistent suggestion.
She shook his head and forced a smile.
"Don't worry Roy, you don't have to do that, and I also have a walk ..." she interjected.
"All right, I'm leaving ..." Roy would have said another word, but he ignored it and continued to go out.
Shena shook her head and looked down the road, but her eyes immediately widened as the truck approached without even a front light, so she could clearly see how hard it was for the driver to stop the Truck approaching me.
"SHENA !!!!!!!! She heard Roy's voice running towards, but it was too late before he could move. She held on tightly to her necklace that her parents had left to her before they left her in foster care.
She closed her eyes tightly because she felt very dizzy. Even her body seemed to be drifting in the water. She couldn't even open her eyes because she was so tired. Even she just wanted to let her body drown in emptiness and her body only thought she was tired.
She never once wondered if she was tired or if he wanted to rest for a while. Her time is limited, so she doesn't have time to think about anything else. But ... .for now she will tolerate.
'Is this the feeling of death. You can't feel the pain, but it's dizzying as if you're pulled into nothingness. Memories from the time I thought until I died came back to my mind. My dream is just a dream. She will never be able to fulfill the dream she worked so hard for. '
She bit her lip at the same time as her tears flowed.
'Deep inside I also dream of seeing my parents. I want to know why they left me alone. I have many questions for them that have not been answered. Likewise, I also dream of having a happy and big family. Not only that, but I want to give what I can give them. Furthermore, I want to love them with all my heart and so do they. Likewise, I also dream of someone who will accept me and love me with all my heart.'
Shena's chest tightened even more with the feeling. It turns out all the truth that she has been hiding for a long time. The truth is that she is thirsty for love.
She didn't realize that she had fallen asleep.