It's been hard for me. I go out night after night searching for Cassia but to no avail Aurora my wolf has been taking over more often and her anger has been getting the best of us. She goes off if someone tries to talk to us and I can't even control my power my Alpha aura knocks the wind out of anyone that is around. They drop to their knees and bare their necks in submission. I hate that it happens to my parents but I can't control it and won't be able to until we find Cassia. If anything happens to her I have a feeling my wolf will go crazy and kill even those that we see as friends and family. Alpha Brian still won't talk to us and explain what happened I think he is afraid that I might kill him if he says the wrong thing. I want to believe that I could control myself not too but I can't say for certain. My mom brings my food to my room knowing that I don't want to be around others but in all reality I can't my power could hurt the pups and I don't want that. I pick at my food barley eat just enough to keep my strength up so I can continue to search for her. My mom tries to stop me from going alone but it's like my brain can't process her pleas for me stop. I can't stop my body and my brain won't let me. We are heartbroken both Aurora and myself.
I pray to the Moon Goddess every night hoping for some kind of answers but nothing. Aurora howls at the moon full of sadness and anger towards her creator. Her howls can be heard for miles upon miles the echoes of pain and torment flow through the air. We lay down on the cold hard ground and cry until we can't physically cry anymore. It's been three weeks and I don't know how much more of this I can take. I ask my father to summon our best trackers I have clothes that belong to Cassia that I never washed that way I would have something with her scent on it when she wasn't with me. Five skinny men walked in looked at me then at my father and bowed in respect. I told Aurora to calm down so that way we could talk to them and they could focus on the task at hand instead of their wolves being controlled by basic instinct to submit to those of higher rank. Once she calmed down to were we could be in the same room as one another and the five men could stand instead of being on their knees. I apologized for it and continued to explain what was needed of them: I need your help in finding my mate as everyone knows I found my mate early due to her being a vampire and she knew since the first day we met. She was taken by rouges and I haven't been able to find her on my own we will get the other Alphas permission for you to pass through their lands. Once you catch her scent report back and wait for further instructions." They all said "Yes Alpha" all at once I gave them each a piece of clothing to take with them thankfully her scent was just as strong as the day she wore them.
I knew it would take awhile and each of them had permission to take up to six per search party after they left I went back to my room and took a bath to try and relax my muscles because I wore myself out way to much because I couldn't listen. It finally hit me that if I didn't take care of myself I would be to weak to save my mate even if I would have found her. Of course I had to have a talk wit Aurora and try to make her understand that we are weak right now our body wouldn't be able to handle a fight we would die and so would Cassia. During my bath I explained everything to her even though she was more than just pissed off she understood where I was coming from. Thankfully she was more understanding than I thought she would be. My heart aches so I cry and let out as much as I can before I get out. Once dressed I head down to the kitchen thankfully Jasmine was in there she is the best cook in the world well second best Cassia is by far the best chef. As soon as she notices me she bowed her head to show her respect even though she didn't need to. I asked her if she could make me some food lots of it that way I could get back to the way that I was. Within these few short weeks I lost way to much weight that it made Aurora weak even though she didn't show it I could feel it. I knew that we were hungry but just didn't have the appetite to even think about food.
I waited in the dining room thankfully it didn't take her long and she brought me out plate after plate of food that was high in protein she knew what I needed and I thanked her before she walked away. As I sat there and ate I couldn't help but think of Cassia and what we would be doing right at that moment. My heart sank and Aurora started to whimper so I had to change what I was thinking about. I called Jasmine to come sit with me for a minute so that way we could talk: I have a huge favor to ask if you I know that it's a lot and if it's to much please let me know. I know everyone takes turns with kitchen duty but you know exactly what I need right now. I'm weaker then I have ever been and that is nobody's fault but my own. As you know I found my mate and she was taken by rouges and I have basically starved myself due to me being sad and my wolf being both pissed off and beyond miserable. So what I need from you is to keep making me lunch and supper meals just like this. Also snacks for me before I do my morning workouts." I asked her and of course she could have said no but she said that she would with no hesitation in her voice whatsoever. I felt a little better after I ate so I went to the gym to do a small workout that way I could loosen up my muscle a little more. I knew once I got back into my daily routines again things would be a lot better.