This is going to be the start of my new life, was the thought that came into Rain's mind as soon as she opened her eyes the next morning, soft sun raise was coming through the gaps in curtains that were hung on the window on her left side of the bed, the smell of new bedsheets was pack in room, she slowly got up and looked at her new room.
This is the fourth time she is seeing and sleeping in some new room, and she got up. This room was a little bigger than the room Sophie is in, this was the weird fact, Sophie slept with Mrs.Finn and not her, Rain thought, she sometimes hated her sister as well for giving so much chance to strangers.
Walking a few steps towards the attached bathroom door, rain noticed the smell of new paint near the walls and touched the wall beside the bathroom door, did they paint this room for me? Do they care?
Shaking her head disapprovingly, she made her way inside the bathroom and looked in the mirror that was on her right, over a washbasin, her cheeks were puffy and red and her eyes too looked red and swollen, with all the silent tears she shredded last night, it was normal for Rain to look like this, she usually ends up crying herself to sleep in any way.
" The pain never goes away, it always stays," She muttered with a little raspy voice.
While in the other room Sophie who was already ready and excited, opened her door and peeked out into the hallway. Her sister's room was just in front of her, and she was sure, her sister was going to be angry at her for sleeping with their new mother. She wanted someone to love her, unlike her sister who wanted no one but them together.
Sophie thought of going to her sister's room, but then she also wanted to go to their new parents, whose voices were even coming up, their soft giggles and excited tone was attracting Sophie, today was going to be the first day for them as a family, as school was still days away, they planned on going out, though Rain looked bored of that plan she still had given her approval.
Without thinking more Sophie knocked on Rain's door, after about a minute Rain was standing in front of Sophie at her door wearing a plain black T-shirt with jeans, she smiled while looking at Sophie and said, " Now you remember me?"
"No, it's not like what you are thinking, I am…" As Sophie was trying to explain, rain dragged her inside and said, " I am not looking for explanations, I am only saying, you know what we got after trusting people before this, and so don't get too comfortable with these people as we might have to leave them too, someday, we don't know how people are." To which Sophie silently nodded.
"Now, let's go and have something to eat." Rain added calmly.
The sisters made their way towards the kitchen while listening to the whispers and giggles coming from it.
The kitchen was huge, and just attach to the hall on the left, with many cabinets and a big dining table in middle, it still looked spacious, with modern styling and cream-colored walls it just looked like the celebrity kitchen Rain used to see in magazines and tv shows.
"Good morning mo…" Sophie looked at Rain nervously.
"Good morning Mr. And Mrs.Finn" Rain gushed and smiled.
Kaitlin and Oliver Finn were very happy and excited for this day, the day when they will have two daughters, the day they will become parents, the day they will be regarded as mom and dad. But now it seems like that day is still far away, as they turned with smiles on their faces, they were successful in hiding the pang of hurt that they just felt when they heard Mr. And Mrs.Finn instead of mom and dad.
"Good morning kids, we prepared pancakes for you guys." Kaitlin beamed
"Don't mind the burnt ones, it is my first time." Oliver chuckled.
"Thank you for your kind efforts Mr. And Mrs. Fin" Rain smiled while sitting down.
Kaitlin turned with a smile and started preparing more pancakes while Oliver sat in front of their daughters.
" yum, they are so good mo… Mrs. Finn." Sophie cheered and looked at her sister and Rain nodded approvingly.
If the morning is like this, what will the day be like? thought Oliver
Once everyone was done with breakfast, they all packed and got out for the awesome day out and picnic. Sophie was laughing, smiling, enjoying, chattering, and chirping a lot and so was Kaitlin and Oliver, but Rain only smiled once or twice and was continuously looking out of the car window and never uttered a word other than "thank you for your kindness" and" I would like that."
Though Kaitlin wanted to give time to both of them, she still was annoyed with rain's behaviors, she saw how rain controlled Sophie and how she was acting the part of the mother while she can perfectly see that Kaitlin wanted to be the mother for both of them. She wanted to be the mom so bad for years and years now, and she was getting irritated by the fact that she was getting sidelined by a moody teenager. But she kept quiet and calmed herself every time she saw Rain poking or pressing sophies hand to show her disapproval and to stop her.
After arriving at the picnic spot, Oliver asked Kaitlin to take the kids inside the park and he will come after parking and shopping. Kaitlin made her way inside the park with the kids, after letting Rain decide the spot and letting Sophie spread the mattress on the grass under the blue beautiful sky, they were seated waiting for Oliver to come.
While waiting, Rain decided to walk for a few distances and asked Kaitlin for her permission and kat nodded and asked her to come back as soon as they pinged her, she answered with a nod and okay.
While walking through the park rain spotted a small pond glistening at some distance from where she was, she looked back and saw small figures of Mrs.Finn and Sophie and decided to go towards the pond, she took her phone out of her pocket and started typing, " I am going near the pond." after clicking on sending she pushed her phone inside the pocket without waiting for any reply.
While she was near the pond, she heard her phone's ping and saw "okay, don't go too far." a message popping on the home screen. She watched her mother looking at her smiling, her pretty hazel eyes, her dark hair, and thought, only if you could be here with us, and clicked the power button to close her phone and watched the screen get dark.
When she first got her phone, she never had any photos as her home screen wallpaper but as soon, as she got her second phone while being in foster care, she decided to keep her mom as her wallpaper, and that was also the reason for her crying most of the times too.
Putting her phone back she watched the water slowly moving and watched the ducks swimming smoothly on the pond surface, she started to walk towards the lake, it was weird how she never learned to swim but still loved the sea, the ponds, the lakes, and the ocean.
Another couple of steps, how weird was it that now as she was nearing the pond's shore, she wanted to stop but couldn't, the water was now touching her feet, how weird is it that the water is so cold yet she can't seem to back away.
After 3-4 steps.
How weird is it that now she is knee-deep in the pond and she still is going forward?
After 5-6 steps.
Do I always want to die? I am not stopping, maybe because I want to die?
After 5-6 steps
I am barely above the water, my clothes are soaked, why can't I turn, do I really want to die.
And thud, she was inside the water, first calm then suddenly as if something was removed from her head she came to her senses and started vigorously slapping and throwing her hands on the water surface, but she can't swim.
Slowly she started losing her energy, I shouldn't have walked this far, I am tired, shouted her voice inside her head.
With her body losing its strength, the water was getting stronger and going inside her lungs little by little, filling them up little by little. making her sink little by little.
Then she felt the burning of lungs for air and her slow sinking, with tears in her eyes, she closed them and let herself loose, and inside the water, she slides.
Maybe it is my time to rest.