"It's ok," Yana pushed down all of these suffocating and gradually mortifying thoughts and pretended everything was as it always was.
Luka only buried his head deeper in Yana's shoulder and embraced her tighter. This sort of situation made Yana speechless. She couldn't help but think that Luka had some sorts of ulterior motives towards her.
Maybe Luka was also just faking all of this, his feelings for Yana, his care and his gentleness. Maybe he had some bad intentions towards her or maybe he found out about her background and that was the reason why he came for her.
The more Yana thought about it, the more she couldn't help but feel that Luka was also putting up an act and for some reason, this reassured her.
Yana didn't have to secretly feel bad about exploiting Luka now. If Luka really had ulterior motives then none of their feelings were real.
This ambiguous relationship, this kindness, warmth and tenderness Luka showed her, was all fake.
This was good. Yana didn't mind if Luka harboured some evil plans against her. Yana was now completely sure to not give in to Luka. And so their feelings, this relationship was sealed.
No matter how good Luka appeared to be, Yana wouldn't be fooled. Or else how could all of this be explained? There were too many mysteries and unanswered questions surrounding Luka. Asking him directly would only raise suspicion.
"Yana..." Luka's soft voice that almost sounded like a spoilt whine brought jer back to reality, "So you aren't mad at me?"
If Yana didn't have all these thoughts about Luka just a few seconds ago, she would've really forgiven him but now she only pretended to.
"No," Yana reassured and patted Luka's head. To her surprise, he rubbed himself against her hand then turned to smile at her. It was clearly obvious. The infatuation in his eyes but Yana didn't let her guards down, "You're so big. Quick. Let me go now."
Luka grinned, ''No, why would I?" but then turned serious, "Don't worry I'll get rid of all these people here clinging onto you. The press and those, well, women…"
Luka hated to admit that these women thought Luka was theirs, belonged to them, where did this misunderstanding, their confidence just come from?
"Oh really?" Yana raised her eyebrow, "Of course you can stop these women, after all, they all claimed that you only have eyes for them. Oh wait, that you're solely theirs. But don't worry I don't care."
Yana mockingly looked at Luka who truly thought that she was jealous. Yes, yes back then at the banquet, her brief reaction and her leaving early in the morning was all because these females must've said something to Yana, along those lines and thus Yana was angry at him.
Luka's tail raised and started to wag. Light accompanied by hope came crashing into this body giving him the delusion that he misunderstood! That Yana and him were actually getting closer but because of those rumours, Yana gave him the cold shoulder.
Hehe. Luka was over the moon. He had a big fat chance to enarmour Yana! With renewed vigour, Luka cuddled his head back into Yana's neck and refused to let go.
"I'll take care of it! Everything! I've got nothing to do with any female. I'm still a virgin!"
Cough. Yana almost choked on her own saliva- What the fuck?
Where the hell did this come from? Did she ask for that?
And who in their right mind would fucking admit to it?
Yana helplessly stared at Luka. He was like a big baby.
A puppy. So obedient. Totally different form compared to when they first met again. That jerk. Now, look at him.
Yana really had no idea what was going on in his mind. She couldn't read him and this made her anxious. But it was best for her to stop thinking about it.
Whatever he did, she was ok with it as long as he didn't interfere with her job.
"Are you also a virgin?"
A few veins popped on Yana's head as that big, dumb baby innocently asked her. Yana wanted the old Luka back. To hell with this… this… this!
Who in the world would be so direct? Would just straight out ask someone? Especially in this childlike manner?
Yana endured the raging fire she wanted to spit at Luka and took a deep breath but she grabbed his face with both hands and stared him dead in the eyes, "Yes."
Her long hair fell over Luka's face and framed hers like a curtain. At this moment, Luka could only see her big eyes. So clear and so determined. So beautiful and so enticing.
Luka was moved. She made so much effort to convey her sincerity so Luka wouldn't get the wrong idea!
"Thank you!" Luka nodded energetically and once again left Yana with a massive WTF stamped on her forehead. What was going on with him? Did he take something wrong?
If Yana knew that Luka misunderstood that she was keeping herself sacred for him all of these years, she would've split open his head and caught that trail of thought that went down the wrong path and cut it out entirely out of his mind.
During school and uni no matter how popular Yana was, she never had a boyfriend. Many guys asked her out but Yana only cared about food and less than a dog's poop about romance.
Yana never had parents, never had anyone care about her, so how could she understand when someone told her 'I like you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Make you happy. Care for you and all that bullshit'. Yana has never experienced any kind of love so how could she know how to love, what love meant?
Romance and all these thoughts about love and wanting a boyfriend were all completely unfathomable for her. What did it mean to love someone, to care about someone, to want to spend the rest of your life with someone?
Yana understood that her views were different from others. In fact, she always felt disgusted when a guy started to like her but she pushed down the feeling and acted kind and cheerful but in the end, it was true what the saying said 'A child that has never been loved grows up unable to love.'
Yana as well never wanted a boyfriend just for sake of dating. What was so good about it? Thus she never even had her first kiss, much less engaging in some physical intimacy with another person.
Love was something she didn't care about. Romance was something she never craved. All she wanted in her life was answers and to take actions. That was why she followed Roy and threw away a perfectly normal life that most craved for, that was why her goal was-
"Tomorrow none of them will ever bother you again," Luka has been rambling on for a while and only now did Yana notice it. Luka was still a virgin. Was that true?
Well, back in uni, he was an outsider but now as someone who was well-desired by the public, Luka really remained abstinent?
In this ocean full of beautiful and seductive women could really any guy, no, person, stay away from all these fatally tempting fishes?
Yana might now but Luka?
How ridiculous. there was no way he hasn't tasted a woman's body once or maybe even a male one's.
Yana narrowed her eyes. She really had to get her answers about Luka.
These past 5 years Yana has done a lot and changed everything.
So what about Luka? What did he hide in those 5 years?