1 YEAR LATER
I was at home as a friend because that's how it always stays with someone, Sister Celia and Rose always stay with me at home, and without speaking about Sister Regina and Pastor Eduardo, they are always by my side, help me, today I am going to do an exam for getting pregnant again because everyone keeps talking about it all the time. Jack I know that he wants me to do this more, I don't really want to because I already suffered a lot from it all, I don't want to suffer again, Dr. Claudio said that I can get pregnant when I want more, it's been 8 months and nothing, so he asked for an exam, because I have a lot of pain, binominal lately he wants to see how it is and not to mention that in the period of my rules they are more and more, it was up to 20 days, well let's see what this will do, I confess that I am afraid because 9 months ago I had emotional crises and I went to the doctor he referred me to the psychiatrist because I was in a very critical condition and I was diagnosed with depression in the last degree and high panic syndrome all this at the same time, sometimes I lost the sense of what I was talking about doing, and the good Jack in this period I felt angry, hated him and wanted to kill, but he was always on my side even when I didn't want to see him, and sometimes I saw the suffering in his eyes plus the strength he's been showing try to strengthen me and a lot I just have to thank God for having him by my side.
I arrived at the clinic to do the exam, and it wasn't long before my name was called because I had obs. So that I don't spend too much time indoors with a lot of people so I don't have panic attacks, and I don't have relapses.
During the exam the doctor made me ask some questions that I found very strange but I answered them all later he asked me to take my exam urgently to my doctor, so I called the office and the secretary informed me that the doctor was still in the office and so I left there straight to Dr. Claudio's office.
I arrived quickly because it was not far from there, and as soon as his secretary saw me he came to receive me as he always does
- Kris dear Dr. Claudio is waiting for you to come in, so I just returned your hug and said nothing more, I went into his office, and greeted him,
- Good afternoon doctor,
- Good afternoon my dear patient, how are things,
- Good doctor, I just left the exam room that you asked me for and the doctor who did the exam asked me to read it urgently, so I gave him the result of the exam, he took it and looked at a guy who told me I was scared just to see his expression, and I asked,
- Doctor has a problem with my exam, he looked at me and sighed,
- Yes, you have a 10 cm slit in your uterus, I don't know what else is here why you haven't got pregnant yet,
- This is a serious doctor and how it happened you can tell me,
- I don't know yet, I will need you to do another exam to see the seriousness of this problem,
- Okay, I do it and so I left his office and went to our new house because after the death of my daughter we bought a house in a closed condominium on the other side of the city, it was considered noble sand.
When Jack came home I was in the room as I took a lot of medicine I was calm, wanting to understand what was happening this time when he lay in bed next to me and I looked at him and saw how beautiful my husband was I had forgotten of this detail due to the problems and events in our life, I looked right into your eyes,
- You still and my love knew I love you still very much, my prince, I said that he kisses me and then he said,
- My beautiful little girl I love you too and I will always love you my whole life, I heard him say that made my heart rejoice after everything that happened he still loves me and will continue to love me, we lay there embracing one doing affection in the other, but then I broke the silence that reigned there,
- My love, the exams gave problems,
- Really? What was it, and what is the problem?
- Well, I still don't know, I confess that I'm afraid because I saw Dr. Claudio's face worried and told me to do an exam to be sure of what,
- My beautiful, we will trust God and pray that it will not be anything serious,
- Yes we will trust him
After a week he is taking the exam called uterine histography. I got the exam result after a week because this exam is done outside the city. I took it to the doctor who made an uglier face than the other time,
-We will have to do urgent surgery on you kris, the case is serious, very serious, I heard those words they did I was afraid of what was to come, and I couldn't wait for the time I started crying, he came to comfort me and said,
- My dear, don't be like this, everything will be all right, you just need to trust God,
- Doctor, you are telling me the truth, but I saw in his eyes that he is hiding something from me,
- Yes, I'm telling you the truth,
- Ok I'll talk to my husband and let's decide what to do, it can be,
- Of course, and so I left there with my head racing and scared because I felt there was something very wrong happening he did not want to tell me, that day was a day of worship as I was emotionally shaken that day due to the result of the exam, is talking to Sister Rose in the bathroom and was crying when another sister came in and stood there looking at us and then came,
- My dear I couldn't help hearing you talking anymore I know a doctor who can help and without saying that he is also evangelical and will be able to read the help and much more I don't know where he attends or where his office is anymore I will find out and tell you if you want and of course,
- Yes, I want to know a second opinion, this is not serious,
- Yes, my dear, and so the days went by and each time my rules were accompanied by many aches and pains that it was sometimes unbearable to feel, a month had passed and my mother had a bad cold and how Dr. Claudio was her doctor and mine and my sisters and not to mention that he was also a general practitioner in addition to being an obstetrician, and a gynecologist, so I was accompanied by my mother because she was very ill and could not drive, so I was driving for her that day we arrived there, as always, the secretary Neiva came to meet us with great affection,
- Hi my dears what I owe the honor today with the presence of you here
- Well Neiva, doctor Claudio is attending today,
- My dear he is traveling and will only be back in 30 days
- Wow All this,
- Yes he is at a conference outside the country,
- Vixi and now mom what are we going to do,
- But there is another doctor in his place, you don't want to be seen by him, he is also an excellent professional,
- Good daughter we are already here and as I need this one,
- Very well, Dona Maria, you will like him,
- I hope you know how we are with Doctor Claudio ne,
- Yes, I know it's years and years,
- Yes, I think he is part of the family, isn't it, mom?
- Yes this is true,
-All right, there are only three more patients and it will be your turn, so it was after almost an hour because the patients took a long time inside with the doctor, it was my mother's turn to enter,As soon as we got him into lengths and said,
- Hi, good morning, I can help you with what I saw, you are Dr. Claudio's patient and you are giving me a chance and that.
- Yes doctor and with your name,
- My name is Cesar Veiga Barros, when he said this name I had the impression that I had heard of him but I did not remember, and he continued to consult with my mother and it must be an hour that he glorified the name of God and I looked at him and started to cry because I remembered where I had heard his name and said:
- Dr. Cesar, sir and evangelical of what church?
- Well I'm from the church that will live in heaven and glorified again, but I saw that it was from the same ministry that I attended and said:
-How is your name, please?
-And Cesar Veiga Barros why, I was crying and he looked at me and said:
- Because you are crying daughter, I said something, I did with my head that no more my mother said:
- Doctor for two months that she is trying to find you,
- Well already found, and where I can help you miss, so I started to tell him what was happening and looked at me,
- God knows everything in our life and he made this appointment at the right time. Can you be sure, my daughter, good when you are older?
- I am 32 years old,
- Well all this I thought you were younger and how and your name,
- My name and Kristina de França Espátula, why?
- And that your face is not pewter,
- Well, doctor and well-known she was an international model and her husband and a famous businessman too,
- Um it must be that I already saw your face in;
the magazine
- It could be because I don't leave them,
-Hum come on I want to see you on Friday together with your mother who will do this exam for me but make an appointment with me Kris I can call you like this,
- Of course, you can,
And then we left and went home with a feeling that I had found hope for myself.