Hazel Eyes.
Those hazel eyes stared at me straight through my soul. I did not want to admit it but I feel an unknown fear crawled into my system that I do not understand.
"This is Dr. Simon Miller, Lia." James, who is again called me Lia as he was lazy to call me by my full name, introduced the tall and handsome man in front of us.
"Are you sure it is okay to proceed right away with the operation?" I instead asked, did not really want to have anything to do with the said doctor. For some reason I am afraid of him and I do not like that feeling.
"It may not be legal but he is the best," James whispered in my ears and I am not sure why I see an unknown glint pass in the doctor's eyes. He stared at James and me blankly that it is uncomfortable.
There's something fishy about this guy.
"I already look into it and there's nothing that will go wrong if you just relax," James guides me to sit down in the leather chair. "and just prepare for the surgery." He continued as I just nodded. What else could I do?
I tuned out as soon as they talk about my condition and how the surgery will go. I heard some like they need to repair nerves that overstimulating my heart and so on the things I don't really have interest in. Even if it is all about me. Heck, this is all about me.
I just can't believe it. One day I am living in my perfect life being the perfect girl and now I am here, in this illegal facility where I will be illegally operated.
Wow. What a life.
After an hour, well it seems like an hour to me, James bid his goodbye, for now, he said he needs to prepare clothes and shit, as the nurses started to assist me in getting to the operating room. I do not know why I feel that something is wrong or is it just because all of these are happening so fast all the same time. Maybe that's just that.
Last week, I just come to know that I have arrhythmia something, I am not really sure, I just know that it has something to do with my heart beating faster even if nothing is going on. It is really difficult for me to breathe and I endured it for months before I am diagnosed.
And voila, I am here now.
I do not know how James can do all of these in just a short period but I am, well shameful to say, grateful a bit for his concern and yeah, help. In all honesty, I do not know why James sticks to me all these years. Because heck even I do not want to be with me.
I admit I am really a pain in the ass and very handful to handle. But James here did a pretty good job with clinging onto me all of our time being together. Even if every other day I will insist we break up.
"Hello, Aurelia." Deep, husky voice catch my attention than my gaze connected with the most haunting hazel eyes I have ever seen. It is not because it is ugly or something but because it is hypnotic that I just want to hide before I tell him something stupid.
And Aurelia? Really? I don't know why but instead of being comfortable with him speaking without formalities, it makes me feel quite the opposite.
He is a very intimidating guy.
"Hi." I greeted back and deeply inhale and then exhale, my crazy heart is acting again. But I do not think it is because of my heart condition. Afraid or just plain intimidated I do not know. I am restless but I do not know why.
And I do not know why I do not know a lot of things today.
Seems like having a heart condition can make you stupid too. Heh.
The doctor just smiled at me and blatantly stared as he adjusts the wires that he is now starting to put on me. I barely notice that we are the only two that are in the room at the moment. He guides me to lay down without saying a word and put on the mask that made me stared at him in confusion.
"Are you the only one that will be working on me?" I asked, not sure how to feel now as the whole room is terrifyingly silent. I can only hear my heart beating so fast, the beeps of the machines and the disturbing clangs of metal tools.
This is very familiar.
"Sleep, baby girl." He whispered in the already silent room but his deep voice just rang in my head like a broken recorder. He injected me with something while I am busy panicking. My eyes started to droop.
"W-what?" I tried to ask but my mind is so hazy the world around me is just a blur. As my ears started to ring and the blackness started to embrace me like a blanket I can remember just a glimpse of his face smiling.
A smile that is too calm it's frightening.
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James stared at the wall blankly, all the adrenaline rush he felt when the doctor called now gone. All he can feel now is just, confusion. He did not know what to think, he did not believe it.
He cannot believe it.
The words of Dr. Miller rang in his ears that it is annoying. There is something wrong. There must be something wrong.
"I am sad to say that the operation did not go well as planned, after 15 minutes in the OR, she started to convulse and have a sudden cardiac arrest, we tried to save her but," The doctor did not continue but have a sympathetic look on his face as he said this on poor James that in exchange did not talk at all.
He just nodded and ever so slowly sat down on the waiting chairs. His thoughts loud in his mind. There is something wrong. That is what all, that he can think of.
She is just dissing me an hour ago.
He really did not believe everything that the doctor said. Even after he saw her body in the morgue.
The cold gray walls stared back at him as he stands there motionless. He wanted to give up but the thought that there is really something wrong kept nagging at the back of his mind.
Sure, before the surgery the doctor already said that there is more or less a 20% chance she will survive it without a complete heart transplant but he just can't wait for more. She can't wait for anymore. He knows it will take years before she can receive a heart from the waiting line and he did not have the money nor the connection to buy a heart for her. It is not that simple like in the movies.
But thinking that she is now gone, he can't believe it.
For some reason, he can't tear his gaze away from the pale face of his long-time girlfriend. It is familiar but he can't just feel it.
Maybe because she is now cold dead.
But he does not know, it is not just right. He sighed as he decided to go and prepare everything even if he did not believe a thing at all.
But before he let the white cloth cover Aurelia's face, his eyes caught something.
Rather he noticed something is wrong.