Dan opened his eyes.
There's no doubt and surprise in his eyes, if you look closely and defer to it you will see the sadness and melancholy in it, in contrast to his expectation of happiness.
Dan sits up slowly, and he feels weak.
Dan didn't look around to inspect his surroundings, he already knew every crook and cranny of this place.
To tell the truth, he is awake before Mother Riz and Little Jas go to sleep, he just didn't know how he was going to confront their questions about me.
And till now he didn't even know what he's going to do, really didn't expect to be transmigrated to the World of One Piece, and he expected himself to be happy and be grateful, but he didn't feel that kind of emotions.
He quietly stands up and walks outside of the hut, every nook and cranny of the whole hut, he knows it - thanks to his Absolute Perception while he was asleep and unconscious and being transferred here while the other villagers are busy restoring the other hut.
He sat down on the ladder in front of the doorway and looked up to the night sky, he found himself reminiscing about his past life, the common life of an unimpressive guy.
Dan closed his eyes and it flashed in his mind, a girl that truly accepted him for whoever he was, even though he was an imperfect boyfriend - and an asshole if he can add criticism to himself.
He sighs, and when he's going to scratch his cheek because of sudden irritation to his skin.
He found there was water streaming in his face, he thought that he may drool in his sleep.
Then he wipes it out in his face, to found out he was crying 'f*ck, I am supposed to be happy!' he cried
'why!? f*ck. What am I supposed to do? I dream about this but I am not even happy!', he cried silently and tried to minimize his sobbing.
All of his regrets in his past life keep flashing in his mind, he misses his entire f*cking life.
He misses his two younger brothers who are like a stranger to him, he misses his father who keeps hitting his head, he misses his girlfriend who has a habit of finding fault in him.
When I'm in my past life, I keep cursing myself to disintegrate to nothing, but now I'm regretting it.
Dreaming to transmigrate to One Piece or Naruto but to my expectations, I feel devastated and mourning my past life.
How this ends up in this way.
'I thought I'm going to be happy, and aiming to be the strongest but I'm not. screw those authors!', tears keep flowing and he didn't even feel with his absolute perception that Mother Riz is in his back.
With a hot soup, Mother Riz sit beside him "You know before you keep crying here, why don't you fill up your empty stomach", Dan wipe his face and look at Mother Riz who smiled at him, he looked at his feet
"I am the reason why your village was half destroyed, all of you almost annihilated because of me. I made everyone panic and put all of you in danger but you are still treating me nice. Why?", because of Absolute Perception he can feel and see their true feelings and malice toward him.
He feels the worry and kindness of this middle-aged woman on his side, everyone in this village - most of them feel pity for him and there's who don't want him and have a stingy repulsive feeling towards him.
Mother Riz smiled at him "Here hold this and eat it while it's hot, be careful though", Mother Riz put the bowl with hot soup in his hand.
"You have not eaten food in a long time, so we must heat it before you can consume solid food.", she explained.
"Ow, Thank You Mother Riz", Dan said while blowing the top of the soup and taking a sip then looking at Mother Riz waiting for her answer.
"I just know that you didn't want this to happen, you are just a victim, to be attacked by those inhumane people and be forced to fight for your survival, is an instinct of every human.", Mother Riz looked up to the clear night sky.
"You don't have a choice, but we choose for you. I won't let a kid like you die in front of me without doing anything. And I think Old Geezer would do the same"
"And the truth is, right now I feel what you are feeling when I lose both my son and my daughter-in-law. I feel regrets and keep blaming myself, even though we didn't have the same issue but still have the same result, we both feel regrets and remorse. Am I right?", in the eyes of Mother Riz there is a hidden gleam of sadness.
Dan nodded and ignore the sadness that keeps oozing into the body of Mother Riz.
"Then can I give you advice as a senior, I keep blaming myself for over the years, that I didn't even notice that I have something and goal to care for and keep striving to achieve.", Dan sipped his hot soup and replied.
"Is it little Jas ?"
Mother Riz laughed at the way Dan called little Jas "You call her little Jas even though you're like a cry baby awhile ago"
Dan immediately retorted "I'm not a crybaby, I just feel guilt and regret over something."
'and if we talk about living a few years, I am still older than your grandchild!' Dan complained to himself and continued to drink his soup.
"I know that's why I told you that, you must find your new goal, as long as a person is alive it has a goal that must be pursued and your past regrets and mistakes are your guidelines, you are still young. You have a long time to right your wrong and pursue a life that you will not regret again.", Mother Riz pat Dan's head.
Dan wants to shove her hand but he can't because he doesn't want to hurt her goodwill to him "Can you please don't pat my head? and you messing my hair", only to be laugh at and the middle-aged woman heavily mess his hair
"hahahhahaha", a hearty laugh reverts to the village.
"Let's go to sleep and you need to rest", Mother Riz stood up and walked inside.
Dan looked at the starry sky and walked inside.
'What is my goal?'