Earl
My life started to crumble down because of a simple flu
The woman in white is my doctor and she handed me some print outs
My mom sitting on the chair beside my bed
I started to read it, the title says
Common colds can lead to hearing loss
"No" throwing the paper on the bed, I don't want to read it
That's bullshit
A cold causing a hearing loss?
It's making me laugh
I look at my mom and she had a puffy eyes and a sad face
I didn't say anything but her eyes are starting to form tears again
The door open and my dad entered the room, I stayed silent
They're talking and I absolutely can't fucking hear them
This is just a nightmare and I'm going to wake up later, I'm assuring myself with that but this nightmare is realistically true
"Son how are you feeling?" I can't hear my dad but I can read his lips, still I didn't answer him "Everything is going to be okay"
The doctor explained to me everything, she talked slowly while I'm reading her lips
I tried to shut down my emotions so that I will not cry
I learned that, I was asleep until late afternoon yesterday and Mary found me burning from my fever, she called the ambulance and sent me here in the hospital
The doctor also said that it's a progressive type of hearing loss, I can use a hearing aid but the time will come that hearing aid will become useless
I'm trying to convince myself that it's just hearing that I lost not everything of me
But
I know I fucked up