I'm standing in front of her room and sighed. It's already an hour to stare awhile at the door in front of me. I took a deep breath and gripped the bouquet. You're not supposed in this room, Sarah. We miss you.
"Ms. Salsabila called." I'm nodding my head.
"Tell her I'm visiting Sarah." I said. Okay, this is it. I'm approaching the door. With a heavy heart, I opened the door. She blankly to the wall and as she hugged her knees. "Sarah, it's me." The doctor said she has depression and addiction.
I tried to save her as she saved me. "I don't want to see you." She said.
I took a deep breath and put the bouquet on the desk. "We miss you." She looks at me. No words can describe about this feeling. "Once you told me… don't waste your money on unuseful thing such as drugs, alcohol, and everything could harm you."
She looks down. I'm walking, approaching her and sits on the bed in front of her. "We don't have bad intention to you. I called someone to guard your house, not called your parents and your workplace, and it's only us who knows you were here."
I took a deep breath and grabbed her hand, but she brush it off. "I'm not kicked you off from our life… we're sorry we're not saying anything to you because…" Sarah throws a vase into the wall in front of her.
Oh, God. Why she becomes like this? "Please go! I don't want to hear anything from you!" I'm looking at her face. She has eyebag and her eyes swallowed. I cleaned her mess for her and accidentally scratch my finger. Rose will call an ambulance if she notice this wounds.
She keeps throwing things at me as she begged me to leave. A doctor and two nurses came to my aids. "You alright? Your finger was bleeding."
I'm nodding my head and try to hold the sting sensation and took a deep breath. "It's fine. I can handle it." Guess the visiting hour is over. I'm trying to take a peek, but the nurse holds my shoulders.
"She's in a good hand, trust me." What else can I do? I'm standing there stare into the white door. Hanks tapped my shoulder and shook his head. I'm covering my face and took a deep breath.
There's always be tomorrow. I rubbed my face and walked to the parking lot. I'm looking at my back and make sure the doctor or one of them gets out and searching for me to tell her condition.
"Ms…" I raised my hand and nodding my head. I know. We should get going, or this blue diamond will steal from anyone.
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I picked the present and took a deep breath. I hope her mom goes somewhere, and she's alone. There you are, sitting on the terrace, wringing your hands as you waiting on something. What are you waiting for? I get out of my car with that box in my hand.
I'm approaching my queen. Embrace her tight. "Does she alright?" She lets go of my embrace and looks into my eyes. She looks at my hand. "What is that?" She pleased me to seat and put the box on the coffee table there.
Oh, right? "This… is a present for you from me, but… please open it when the day we're about to get married." She nodding her head as furrowed her brow. For her, it's a strange request, but… it's a surprise for her. "About her condition… it's getting worse, I think. She even doesn't want to see me."
She exhales and her eyes so distant. I'm holding her hand. "Do we… need to tell her parents about her condition?" She asks.
I want to tell about her condition to them, but will they blame her? Sarah and her parents never get along because she wanted to become a doctor rather than get married after she graduates high school. They said, woman should take care of her husband and.
Since Sarah leave her home, she struggles with herself, looking for a job to pay the tuition. How difficult the way was, she choose to pursue her ambition after the rocky mountains she climbed, waves she sailed, her success and prove her parents wrong. That's what Rose said.
If I call and tell them her condition now, will they take care of her? That's question keeps coming into my head every day. I took a deep breath and exhale slowly. "What if we are visiting her again tomorrow?" Rose tapped my hand.
I'm nodding my head, sighed. I can't stop thinking about what she said to me earlier. Fuck. "Hey, is there something bother you today?" I'm looking at her. Besides, the full set blue diamond almost emptied my savings, yes. Her condition.
We should visit her every day, or at least asking how her doing through the doctor or the nurse there, buying her a souvenir. Not leaving her alone, trapped in that room for days without a word. I support my chin with my hand and tapping my fingers on the table.
"Is that… my fault for not call her parents and tell what happened?" I asked to her.
Rose holds my hand. "We should call her parents, no matter what. If they don't want to taking care of her, then we, as the closest, should be the one taking care of her." Wise answer, babe. I like it.
She's right. No matter what, we should call her parents. "I will call her parents tomorrow." She's nodding her head. Right, we haven't made a reservation. Argh… we should go to Malang tomorrow.
"Babe," I hummed. "Tonight… lots of stars in the sky. People said the most brightened star in the sky is someone we loved watching. I saw two stars, and… I think one of them is your best friend."
I'm nodding my head as I'm looking at the shining lights. People said stars actually a big boy, but why the song told us that stars are small?! I'm chuckling, facepalmed my face. "Is there something funny?" She furrowed her brow.
"Hahaha…" oh my God. What am I laughing at? I took a deep breath and sighed. I'm chuckling and sighed. "No, I just…" I rubbed my face with my two hands and sighed.
"I know…" a motorcycle honk hear from a distance. I standing up and this is my cue to leave. "Tomorrow… before we had a reservation, okay?" I'm nodding my head and looking at my agenda. Kiki told me in the morning, I have a meeting with an investor.
I hope he makes it quick. "Oh, you again. How are you?" I kissed her hand. She is my queen's mother.
"I'm good, ma'am. How are you?" She parked her motorcycle next to my car and get inside without replying to my question. I took a deep breath and sighed. Shit, how awkward is that? Rose approaching me and tidying my tie.
"My mom is in a bad mood because… she fought with our neighbor." She lowering her voice. Oh, no wonder she seems pretty pissed. Maybe it's because of her neighbor dumped their trash inside her dumpster outside. I took a deep breath and stroked her hair.
"I want to go home. Don't forget, don't open the present before the d-day on the reception event, okay?" She hummed and looking at me in the eye. I get inside my car and she standing there until I already not seen by her sight.
I took a deep breath and loosen my tie. "Hanks, can you call Dan? I want to know his progress about Sarah's case so far." Hanks nodding his head as he concentrated on driving me home. One place I haven't visited for a while.
TBC