I took a deep breath and pour the Coca-Cola on my empty glass. It's difficult for me to saying anything. "Um… aunty and uncle, we wanted to get married, please…"
"No!" My dad stands up, about to leave. That old man.
"Dad, sit down!" I swear to God this will become the last time I want to face him. I'm don't want someone did not respect her as they respect to their close one. "Please respect my fiance as you respect Mike's wife. At least do it for your reputation." He looks at surround him.
People walking by, sitting down, waitress taking the order, also their food come. I sighed in relief, leaned my back. "I don't want my daughter married to a woman like her! You…"
"I love her, okay? How I supposed to hold my feeling towards her? Okay, I married with him. Did you think my life will be happy!?" I shook my head. "You forced me to get married to him, dad. I'm already grown up! He…" I took a deep breath.
Everything I did until today, it's for me. It's my decision and my choice! "Lobak…" she rubbed my shoulder. I tried to hold back my tears.
"It's not okay, babe. It's not okay!" All eyes on us. Shit. I shouldn't make attention. I bow my head to apologize for surrounding me.
"Did you just say you are against your religion and us for the sake of love?" My mom asked. I took a deep breath. There's no turning back.
"Yes." My mom standing and walked away. My brother's family and my sister followed my mom after they listening to my answer. My dad sitting there and looked at the food in front of him.
"Do you remember what happened to your left hand?" He asked him. I took a deep breath and holding her hand tight as if I don't want her to stay away from my side. I don't want to lose her, on the other side, I want my family accept my sexuality.
Seems like they don't want to accept me as who am I. "Dad, I know. Mom resigned to her work because of me, right? To take care of me?" He was silent. "I respect both of you as my parents. Is that enough!? Oh, I forgot if came to respect you never know."
He wants to slap me, but Rose holds his hand. "She still your daughter," she lowered her voice. Rose took a deep breath. Her body was trembling, she hold back her tears. "I love your daughter, too. It's okay. You don't give us blessing, but please, she wants her family to accept her."
I pulled her and to my side and shook my head. "You don't have to, babe." I wiped her tears, clear my throat, and lowering my voice. I embrace her and stroked her hair.
Today, you witnessing true nature about me. I don't know it will backfire to me in the future. "Let's we go home, okay? We need to…"
I shook my head. "Let's we meet another family at the Aceh." I hold her hand. My heart beating fast. "I…"
"No, I also I can't hold back my feeling towards you. As you said before. We are against the world." She put her forehead to mine. I want to kiss her, but it's a public area.
It's Indonesia, not USA or Thailand. You can't kiss her in front of the public. "What's next?" We holding hand tight. My father was nowhere to be found. I took a deep breath and looked at an unfinished meal in front of us. Don't waste food. Besides, I'm hungry.
"Let's we… have a date, on your place." She leans her head on my shoulder. I cleared my throat, "babe." She called me. "Thank you to keep standing by my side."
I put my fork, stare into her eyes. "I know. My family won't accept me and our relationship with my religion opposite like not people normally do. If you want…"
She put her finger on my lips. "No, I'm ready." I hold her hand tight. "Let's we live in the moment, just us!" She stared into my eyes.
I'm nodding my head and took a deep breath. I pour the Coca-Cola into her empty glass and mine. "Next destination… is your friend, and we should discuss our wedding. Theme, place and time, and catering. Also, the ring, invitation, venue, and more.
So this is how people prepare for the event once in the lifetime? Why it's so difficult!? "Um… I met with Mr. Valentino today, and he wants me to discuss the theme with you. What is your dream wedding?" She looks at me.
"We even haven't discussed time, catering, venue, pre-wedding photoshoot, and more! You will have a rough time!" I'm looking at the food in front of me. Mr. Valentino said, I should keep my weight or the suit will look bad on me. It's an Italian-style suit.
I tried to recall what she said earlier. "You said… pre-wedding photoshoot?" Rose nodding her head. A photoshoot. "I want to recommend you an idea." She takes a bite. "What if we go to your best friend's first, while we were searching for a photographer?" She nodding her head.
"I-It's a good idea." She said. I took a deep breath and holding her hands.
"I'm here, babe. We do it together." She hummed. I put my hand around her waist, pulled her closer. She leaned my head on her shoulder.
"Can we go to Jakarta next week? I want to stay at your house tonight." I picked my phone, but she holds my hand.
I'm looking at the family in front of me. I want to have where my parents accept me as I was. "Lobak?" I'm looking at my next. "I want to go home. Can we… take home this food?" I'm nodding my head. Rose raised her hand and a waitress approaching us.
"Hey!" I'm looking at my back. I sighed. What the fuck you want?! I have a name. He takes a pitcher, then splashed it on me. "You…" he points his finger at me. "Don't you ever come back again. My sister already died." He said.
I took a deep breath, and all eyes were on me right now. Mike. You know me and I'm not letting you go, brother. You will be the one who comes to talk to me.
You have my word, Mike. "Lo-Lobak?" My hand was bleeding and growled. Shit. I forgot to let go of this glass. Oh, shit. Another block in my fucking life.
TBC