I saw Alex eyes gradually become wet. I saw a sense of penitence on his face. But I was not moved. I felt no pity for him. I would have felt pity if this was Dayo begging me few years back after he had forced me into having sex with him in a hotel like a cheap slut. This was because I loved Dayo so much. I was willing to forgive him. Sometimes, I forgave Dayo even before he committed an offence.
But this was Alex. This was a man I had known for just two months and three weeks. This was a man I had just officially dated for three weeks. I was just learning to love Alex. I was learning to appreciate him. I was learning to give my heart to him. But now he had lost it all. He had now lost my trust, my love and every emotions I was beginning to develop for him.
In my anger, I pushed Alex hands off me, and stared at him with anger and fury burning in my eyes.
"Alex, don't ever call me again. Don't even come close to my house, or I swear I will hit you with anything that I can grab."
I pulled the door knob open and walked out of the house. I was heading back home a heart broken woman.
I got into my car, and drove out of Alex house never to return again. I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. I cried bitterly as I took the next turn.
While I drove, I wondered why my relationships always turned sour. Why do I get hurt by the ones I love most? I wondered if true love really existed. I wondered if it was just a fairy tale.
No wonder Temi never cared about love. No wonder she played with every guys heart like a dog plays with a bone. Temi had always boasted not to have a soft spot for men. She claimed that no matter how sweet and caring a man is, she was not a type to fall in love with him.
Temi usually chased the rich and cute guys just to feel among. She had already opened her heart and accepted the bitter fact that men were all the same and needed to be treated just the way the deserved.
Unlike me, sex was nothing to Temi. To her, it felt like eating milk and biscuit. She was always ready to do it so far it gets her what ever she wanted. She was ready to make love to a man to get whatever she desired from him.
When I told her about Dayo's forceful sex, she saw no wrong in it. She claimed he was my boyfriend and had the right to my body when he chose.
Forceful sex na im sweet pass sef (Forceful sex is the sweetest). She said."I wish I could get a guy to give it to me forcefully, while I try to fight him off". Gush! How sweet it would be." She licked her lips in a seducing way, while picturing the moment in her head. Sometimes I asked myself what I was doing with such a friend as heartless and bad as Temi. But did I really have a choice? I loved Temi from our university days. We were very good friends to an extent we were both called TK - an acronym for Temi and Kemi. Although, Temi was sometimes crazy, She was annoying, She could give you the worse advise ever, but she was still my best friend. Temi has always been there for me. She has always been there when I cried and shed tears. She was there to comfort me in my worse moments. When Dayo broke up with me, she was there to hold me and encourage me. I still remember when my mother was sick and needed money for her cancer treatment, Temi went round in search of money to support me. She took mama like her own mother too. When mama died, we both cried a bitter cry. Temi couldn't eat for days. I really wished mama had survived to at least help me say thank you to Temi. I was not an angel too. I have also hurt Temi badly. But Temi was still there for me. She never let me go. How then could I let such a friend go? I changed gears and pressed harder on the Tuttle, I was heading for the next turn heading to Temi's house. I needed to be comforted. I needed someone to tell me everything was going to be alright. I wanted someone to pet me like a child. Temi was all I had now. She was the only friend I could count on. As I approached Temi's house from a distance, I could see Temi standing outside the gate. Dayo's car was just about driving into Temi's house. She had come to open the gate for him. I marched on the car brakes immediately, and watched as my ex boyfriend Dayo, drove into Temi's compound.