My left leg started shaking too. I was gonna have a fucking attack and then allover again I would become the school freak, the weirdo.
I was trying to fight it, my right hand started shaking. Jenny held my trembling hand.
" Are you alright, you're eyes are red " she looked in my eyes and damn her eyes. They were a hypnotising tool. I stopped shaking and I was now nervous.
My breath got a little better.
" God, you're weird " she dabbed her head sideways a bit.
I looked back in the book and thanked Jenny, mentally, for the save. If it wasn't for those marble like hypnosis tools I would've been done.
She covered her book hard, just to draw my attention.
I turned to her.
She looked at me as if fetching for something.
" Your eyes are no longer red " she said.
" Yeah they weren't " I said.
" Yeah right " she said and looked around.
" Hey isn't that the love of your life with another guy " she teased.
" I thought we were gonna stop being mean " I said to her.
" I don't remember agreeing to that, plus I wasn't mean I just said the truth " she said.
" Whatever " I rolled my eyes
" He's name is Ralph. "
" Why should I know his name ? "
" I don't know ...oh is it because he's your competitor " she said to me mockingly.
" I'm not anyone's competition " I said.
She shook her head in disappointment
" You know he's the captain of the school basketball team and the beat player so he gets the hottest cheerleader "
" What ? who's says so ? " this was just crazy.
" You have so much to learn " Jenny said.
" Whatever ... anyway I can also play basketball " I said confidently.
" I don't think you are as good as him " she said . I frowned, she didn't notice .
" Anyway I read at the notice board the tryouts for the school team are tomorrow so you can go and tryout " she wanted to see through me.
" I will " I proudly said to her with a smirk .
Jerome didn't join us even at lunch time he was still with Amanda, but all the same Jenny is fun.
" You know what chilly ? " she said .
" Yes "
" My birthday is two months from now on 24th I will be eighteen" she said but she seemed somehow sad. I wanted to tease her but this wasn't the time for that.
" Oh ...then happy early Birthday on your real birthday just wait for my gift . " I said to her.
" Thanks " as her small lips turned into a smile.
" when is your birthday " she asked me .
" Oh ...mine already past so if you wanna give me a gift wait for my nineteenth birthday next year " I said to her .
" Just wait for my gift. " she assured me.
" Hey why do you keep wearing that thing " she said pointing at my watch.
" Oh this ...it's a watch " I said
" Yeah I know, I have eyes " she said and raised her eyebrows.
" It doesn't work "
" Obviously " she picked up my arm and looked at it.
" What happened ? " she asked analysing my watch and rotating my wrist.
" Water, it fell in water. I mean I went the rain with it " I don't know why but it felt weird, I wanted to tell her the truth.
" My mom gave it to me and spoilt it " I added
" Why don't you just tell her maybe she can find a way to fix it " she said .
" I can't she will be disappointed " I said.
" Why ? " she said . why is she asking me so many questions, I thought .
" Well it belonged to my dad " I said to her .
" so your it's your dad's watch ...and you are worried about disappointing your mom " she said with one eye lash ran up.
" Just forget it" I said and turned away from her.
" oh sorry didn't mean to..." she said and stopped midway, a guilty look on her face.
Jerome and Amanda didn't show up for the rest of the day.
I had come from my class teacher's office, she had invited me in her office to ask me how school was going, whether I was having any trouble. At first I thought mom had told her about my problem but this was her habit calling in new transfers and asking them such. I told her I was fine and school was good then I got out of there to class. I had begged me not to tell anyone about my problem although she insisted I didn't relent, I hate special attention.
I got to class and found Jenny still there. Reading something. Maybe a novel.
" Still waiting for him " I said as I picked up my bag.
" Yap " she looked up and then down to the small book.
" I. . . was going home " I said and looked at her I was nervous. Why did I want to walk with the witch to the gate ?
" Bye " she said without looking from her book.
I should have gone.
" Jerome went home, maybe, so if your waiting for him. He won't show up "
" Good thing I know the road that takes me home " she said.
" Me too " now why the fuck did I say that.
She covered her book and looked at me.
" So you want me to walk with you home, eh "
" No. . . I was. . just. . . I mean. . . if you want we could. . " she laughed.
" Your the shy guy I've ever seen " why was I allowing her to diminish me. I wasn't shy.
" I'm not shy " I weakly defended without looking at her.
She laughed.
Maybe I am.
" Okay, it's getting late. Yes Troy I will walk with you home " she said and made a loyal bow.
" Girls don't bow they curtsey " I said.
" Whatever I'm not a princess or anything " she said and put the novel in her bag.
" You sure do look like one " it slipped my tongue. I mean I wanted to say it but maybe not so that she could hear it. She was the witch. Disadvantages of not always being around girls you never know what to say and what not to say.
She stopped organising her bag and looked at me.
" You know you're trying to hit on me now " she said and resumed organising her big bag.
" I. . . " she cut me off.
" Your cute Troy, but nice try your not my type. " she said and lifted up her big bag full of who knows what.
" Huh, who's your type then ? " Not the question I should've asked but I was really feeling embarrassed.
She let out a heavy sigh and looked ahead.
" I like strong, tall, muscular boys who are really bold and can say whatever they feel without shying about it " she said.
And I was wordless, what the fuck would i have said this was my exact opposite. But wait I was tall and strong, maybe..
" I'm tall " I said and she laughed at me.
I looked at my muscles.
" Oh no you definitely not strong " she pointed out.
" But I'm taller than you " why was I trying so hard ?
" Doesn't count " she said and head to the door. I followed.
We walked up to the gate as she looked around to try and spot Jerome she didn't spot him. We didn't talk much after that conversation. What would I say ? She had literally rejected me.
****to be continued.....