Because a good penis was not enough for her to stay with him although it earned him some precious time with her. No doubt she didnt want sex with him, she already knew she couldnt afford such commitment and attachment. If he will ever get the chance to look into her mind, will he find out what he was most scared of? That she was incapable of loving him? He stares at the girl across him again and he could feel his eyes sting. If he knew some other man with her, perhaps he would blame it on him. For he had not shown the great love she deserved but she knew no man and had not fallen in love yet. What then is it that has broken his Sweet Blue to the point where she didnt want to commit. Even to him. Pulling a side of his lips upwards, he knew friends with benefit but no sex, was that not an hint? Should he not have known, it was her saying...
' I am incapable of loving myself to even love you.'
